On Wed, Jun 1, 2011 at 8:08 PM, Barrett Brown <
barriticus@gmail.com> wrote:
> They cancelled the column after I submitted the conspiracy piece; powers
> that be weren't happy with it. I'm doing a series for al-Jazeera now anyway.
>
> On Wed, Jun 1, 2011 at 8:07 PM, Nikki Loehr <
evilevilcouch@gmail.com> wrote:
>>
>> On an unrelated note, I had this idea that you could maybe do for your
>> Skeptical Inquirer column for this month or something.
>>
>> On Wed, Jun 1, 2011 at 7:49 PM, Nikki Loehr <
evilevilcouch@gmail.com>
>> wrote:
>> > It made me lol
>> >
>> > On Wed, Jun 1, 2011 at 7:47 PM, Barrett Brown <
barriticus@gmail.com>
>> > wrote:
>> >> I'm saying that I miss having sex with you. Last time we broke up you
>> >> came
>> >> over and propositioned me; now I'm propositioning you. If you think
>> >> that
>> >> somehow crosses a line or is shocking or whatever, that's fine.
>> >>
>> >> On Wed, Jun 1, 2011 at 7:40 PM, Nikki Loehr <
evilevilcouch@gmail.com>
>> >> wrote:
>> >>>
>> >>> uh
>> >>>
>> >>> On Wed, Jun 1, 2011 at 7:39 PM, Barrett Brown <
barriticus@gmail.com>
>> >>> wrote:
>> >>> > We could have healthy boundaries via you coming over and letting me
>> >>> > fuck
>> >>> > you
>> >>> > from behind.
>> >>> >
>> >>> > On Wed, Jun 1, 2011 at 7:04 PM, Nikki Loehr
>> >>> > <
evilevilcouch@gmail.com>
>> >>> > wrote:
>> >>> >>
>> >>> >> lol
>> >>> >>
>> >>> >> I miss you too.
>> >>> >>
>> >>> >> Though it'd be a good idea to not be around each other in person
>> >>> >> for a
>> >>> >> while. You know, like, that whole having "healthy boundaries" and
>> >>> >> such, unlike how we rushed into everything in the beginning.
>> >>> >>
>> >>> >> btw when I blocked you on everything whenever ago so as to make it
>> >>> >> easier for both of us to move on and such; it's harder when you're
>> >>> >> reminded of the person on a daily basis. We were around each other
>> >>> >> every single day. That isn't particularly healthy.
>> >>> >>
>> >>> >> I'll unblock you from chat...eventually, hahahahaha
>> >>> >>
>> >>> >> I dunno, actions have consequences lol
>> >>> >>
>> >>> >>
>> >>> >> Oh yeah but anyway, what'd you hear from Gregg?
>> >>> >>
>> >>> >> Oh and also I invited my friends Damon and Mike (software
>> >>> >> engineers)
>> >>> >> along with like half a dozen other people to the Memorial Day party
>> >>> >> (WHICH WAS OMFG SO AWESOME AND AMAZING HOLY CRAP) and I mentioned
>> >>> >> crap
>> >>> >> that you were doing and they were all "blah blah blah." I would
>> >>> >> tell
>> >>> >> you what they said but I don't remember it so I told them they
>> >>> >> should
>> >>> >> tell you.
>> >>> >>
>> >>> >> Anyway, yeah.
>> >>> >>
>> >>> >> How've you been faring?
>> >>> >>
>> >>> >>
>> >>> >> On Wed, Jun 1, 2011 at 5:26 PM, Barrett Brown
>> >>> >> <
barriticus@gmail.com>
>> >>> >> wrote:
>> >>> >> > Well, wanted to make sure you're basically okay, health-wise, as
>> >>> >> > I
>> >>> >> > was
>> >>> >> > worried about what you told me as well as what I'd heard from
>> >>> >> > Gregg.
>> >>> >> > Also I
>> >>> >> > kind of miss you. I took you for granted to a large extent as
>> >>> >> > I've
>> >>> >> > had a
>> >>> >> > lot
>> >>> >> > on my mind for obvious reasons. You should come over.
>> >>> >> > On Tue, May 31, 2011 at 10:28 PM, Nikki Loehr
>> >>> >> > <
evilevilcouch@gmail.com>
>> >>> >> > wrote:
>> >>> >> >>
>> >>> >> >> Okay, so, um...to what extent do you want updates?
>> >>> >> >> Like, I dunno
>> >>> >> >> I could tell you I'm sorta wired right now bc the coffee I made
>> >>> >> >> earlier
>> >>> >> >> with Mexican vanilla extract made it taste like candy, and I ate
>> >>> >> >> a
>> >>> >> >> box
>> >>> >> >> of
>> >>> >> >> cookies and am filled with sugar and spice and caffeine as
>> >>> >> >> preparation
>> >>> >> >> for
>> >>> >> >> tackling that Columbia essay tonight because it's due tomorrow
>> >>> >> >> and
>> >>> >> >> I'm
>> >>> >> >> a
>> >>> >> >> procrastinator (or I could use the excuse that I've been sick
>> >>> >> >> the
>> >>> >> >> past
>> >>> >> >> month, or just pull an artfag and say I was waiting for some
>> >>> >> >> "epiphany"
>> >>> >> >> of
>> >>> >> >> my "vision").
>> >>> >> >> Or I could give you updates as if you were my health insurance
>> >>> >> >> provider
>> >>> >> >> (with every dr visit, test performed, and Rx filled).
>> >>> >> >> Or I could give you updates as if you were my life insurance
>> >>> >> >> provider
>> >>> >> >> (which, in that case, I'm a non-smoker, quarterly perform
>> >>> >> >> triathlons,
>> >>> >> >> have
>> >>> >> >> never had a tooth cavity and split my downtime between saving
>> >>> >> >> puppies
>> >>> >> >> and
>> >>> >> >> volunteering at my local church).
>> >>> >> >> Like, I dunno. We haven't talked for a month. I have no idea wtf
>> >>> >> >> to
>> >>> >> >> say.
>> >>> >> >> It's sorta like the awkwardness of a coworker sending you a
>> >>> >> >> screenshot
>> >>> >> >> of
>> >>> >> >> whatever they're working on, but you happen to notice a folder
>> >>> >> >> on
>> >>> >> >> their
>> >>> >> >> desktop that says "She-Male Porn."
>> >>> >> >> Or like your boss whom you work closely with texting you a photo
>> >>> >> >> of
>> >>> >> >> his
>> >>> >> >> "eclectically decorated hotel room" while on vacation in Mexico,
>> >>> >> >> where
>> >>> >> >> you
>> >>> >> >> happen to notice the chrome plated cocktail shaker in the
>> >>> >> >> foreground,
>> >>> >> >> reflecting two naked boys eating grapes whilst lounging on his
>> >>> >> >> bed.
>> >>> >> >>
>> >>> >> >> ...
>> >>> >> >> Okay so maybe we didn't have that whole Catholic priest / altar
>> >>> >> >> boy
>> >>> >> >> relationship in a past life.
>> >>> >> >> sooo anyway...
>> >>> >> >> I'm fine right now. It gets sorta scary/stressful when dealing
>> >>> >> >> with
>> >>> >> >> it.
>> >>> >> >> I
>> >>> >> >> could elaborate on it all, but if you haven't noticed thus far
>> >>> >> >> I'm
>> >>> >> >> on a
>> >>> >> >> caffeine/sugar rush and this email's far too long as it is.
>> >>> >> >> But, man, those Swedish chocolate mint cookies sure are awesome.
>> >>> >> >>
>> >>> >> >>
>> >>> >> >> On May 30, 2011, at 6:41 PM, Barrett Brown
>> >>> >> >> <
barriticus@gmail.com>
>> >>> >> >> wrote:
>> >>> >> >>
>> >>> >> >> I hope everything's okay and that you get well. Do whatever the
>> >>> >> >> doctors
>> >>> >> >> tell you, take whatever medications you need to take and let me
>> >>> >> >> know
>> >>> >> >> how
>> >>> >> >> you're doing.
>> >>> >> >>
>> >>> >> >> On Thu, May 26, 2011 at 5:00 PM, Nikki Loehr
>> >>> >> >> <
evilevilcouch@gmail.com>
>> >>> >> >> wrote:
>> >>> >> >>>
>> >>> >> >>> Hi. I'm not entirely cognizant at the moment, but I just wanted
>> >>> >> >>> to
>> >>> >> >>> make
>> >>> >> >>> sure you knew that I haven't harbored any hatred or anger
>> >>> >> >>> towards
>> >>> >> >>> you.
>> >>> >> >>> Yeah
>> >>> >> >>> there was a lot of bullshit but I don't really care. That shit
>> >>> >> >>> doesn't
>> >>> >> >>> matter when you're faced with a chronic illness.
>> >>> >> >>>
>> >>> >> >>> I dunno what's wrong right now, but my friend from HS (that
>> >>> >> >>> dude
>> >>> >> >>> Adrian
>> >>> >> >>> apart of the "cockblock brigade" when you met me) took me to
>> >>> >> >>> the ER
>> >>> >> >>> this
>> >>> >> >>> afternoon.
>> >>> >> >>>
>> >>> >> >>> So far they've done an EKG, took an x-ray of my heart, stuck a
>> >>> >> >>> catheter
>> >>> >> >>> in my urethra, stuck an IV drip in my arm, and I'm about to get
>> >>> >> >>> a
>> >>> >> >>> CAT
>> >>> >> >>> scan
>> >>> >> >>> so they can look at my brain or something. I dunno, I may have
>> >>> >> >>> had
>> >>> >> >>> a
>> >>> >> >>> micro-stroke or some heart thing related to the anemia. The
>> >>> >> >>> left
>> >>> >> >>> side
>> >>> >> >>> of my
>> >>> >> >>> face and parts of my left arm were sorta numb.
>> >>> >> >>>
>> >>> >> >>> But yeah, like, seriously dude, the past is in the past. I
>> >>> >> >>> really
>> >>> >> >>> don't
>> >>> >> >>> give a shot about all of the crazy shit from back then. Whats
>> >>> >> >>> the
>> >>> >> >>> point in
>> >>> >> >>> focusing on the negative? How is that pleasant in any manner?
>> >>> >> >>> Theres
>> >>> >> >>> so much
>> >>> >> >>> pain and death externally, I choose to not have that within my
>> >>> >> >>> own
>> >>> >> >>> mind.
>> >>> >> >>> Yeah, there's physical pain, but I didnt cause it. The doctors
>> >>> >> >>> are
>> >>> >> >>> trying to
>> >>> >> >>> figure that out. All I know is that I don't want to die and
>> >>> >> >>> that I
>> >>> >> >>> do
>> >>> >> >>> love
>> >>> >> >>> you in whatever way that is. I love you as much as I love my
>> >>> >> >>> Nadya,
>> >>> >> >>> though I
>> >>> >> >>> don't want to be in a relationship with anyone for a very long
>> >>> >> >>> while,
>> >>> >> >>> so
>> >>> >> >>> don't worry about me just jumping to the next fool or whatever.
>> >>> >> >>> That
>> >>> >> >>> always
>> >>> >> >>> hurts to see that after a breakup. lol if anything, I really
>> >>> >> >>> just
>> >>> >> >>> want
>> >>> >> >>> a few
>> >>> >> >>> cabana boys to give me massages and take out my trash, hahaha.
>> >>> >> >>> I
>> >>> >> >>> get
>> >>> >> >>> pretty
>> >>> >> >>> cranky when dudes get in my personal space lololol. Yeah I've
>> >>> >> >>> gone
>> >>> >> >>> on
>> >>> >> >>> "dates" but I'm basically just getting out of the house and the
>> >>> >> >>> dudes
>> >>> >> >>> insist
>> >>> >> >>> on paying. I guess im partially entertained by the novelty.
>> >>> >> >>> lol,
>> >>> >> >>> man,
>> >>> >> >>> it's
>> >>> >> >>> sort of hilarious I must say, but maybe I just don't care
>> >>> >> >>> because
>> >>> >> >>> my
>> >>> >> >>> interests and priorities are invested elsewhere. In that, like,
>> >>> >> >>> I
>> >>> >> >>> don't
>> >>> >> >>> wanna die.
>> >>> >> >>>
>> >>> >> >>> Anyway, don't feel weird about shit. The only way for you to
>> >>> >> >>> move
>> >>> >> >>> on
>> >>> >> >>> with
>> >>> >> >>> clarity is if you are able to forgive yourself.
>> >>> >> >>>
>> >>> >> >>> But yeah I dunno if I'll be able to go home from the hospital
>> >>> >> >>> tonight
>> >>> >> >>> or
>> >>> >> >>> whenever I'll get out. Fucking magnets.
>> >>> >> >>>
>> >>> >> >>> HOPE YOU'RE DOING SWELL, SON. KEEP ROCKIN THE FUCK OUT or
>> >>> >> >>> whatever
>> >>> >> >>> the
>> >>> >> >>> fuck. Yeah.
>> >>> >> >>>
>> >>> >> >>> Man it's cold here I want another fucking blanket. Pft,
>> >>> >> >>> bitches.
>> >>> >> >>>
>> >>> >> >>> Hey at least I'm more
>> >>> >> >>>
>> >>> >> >>> Oh CAT scan time gtg
>> >>> >> >>>
>> >>> >> >>> Sent from my iPhone
>> >>> >> >>
>> >>> >> >>
>> >>> >> >> --
>> >>> >> >> Regards,
>> >>> >> >>
>> >>> >> >> Barrett Brown
>> >>> >> >>
512-560-2302
>> >>> >> >
>> >>> >> >
>> >>> >> >
>> >>> >> > --
>> >>> >> > Regards,
>> >>> >> >
>> >>> >> > Barrett Brown
>> >>> >> >
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>> >>> >> >
>> >>> >
>> >>> >
>> >>> >
>> >>> > --
>> >>> > Regards,
>> >>> >
>> >>> > Barrett Brown
>> >>> >
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>> >>> >
>> >>
>> >>
>> >>
>> >> --
>> >> Regards,
>> >>
>> >> Barrett Brown
>> >>
512-560-2302
>> >>
>> >
>
>
>
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> Regards,
>
> Barrett Brown
>
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