Sorry Barrett, I'm being needy. You don't need to email me because I'm lonely. I realise I have no claim on you now. Just do your thing and I'll take whatever I can get of you. Remember if you need me I'm here. Love you x

On 1 Jun 2011 22:28, "Emma Allan" <emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com> wrote:
> Okay I understand and I hate having to press you for an answer. I feel that
> if I'm important then I should be important enough to warrant an answer. I'm
> sorry, I know you're busy.
>
> Jesus Christ I come online for 30 seconds and someone google chats me so I
> have to go invisible. The thing is that you're the only one I want to chat
> to or email and I get so many other randoms just sending me crap about
> nothing. I hate it. I wish I could come to Dallas and just camp out in a
> hotel so I can see you.
>
> Galveston reminds me of that song. Galveston I think it's called. I wish I
> was in Galveston.
>
> I keep reminding myself of the email you sent me recently where you said
> there was nowhere you'd rather be than in Newcastle with Jess and I. I try
> to hold onto that even though it seems foolish of me.
>
> I just watched a video of that 13 year old Syrian boy, tortured and murdered
> by Syrian authorities. Broken neck and mutilation. It sickens me. I wish I
> would not look at things posted.
>
> I'm sorry Barrett, I just feel incredibly alone and without direction. I
> don't see how much I can do to make things better without actually going to
> Saudi and driving a fucking car myself. The woman who was arrested was
> released on condition she renounce activism and forego social network
> protests. What sort of justice is that? How can ordinary people retaliate
> against state forces when It's all stacked against them.
>
> And I love you so much. I am trying to keep it in check but it is in me. I
> feel it and I think about you at least 50 times a day (I haven't counted but
> it's a lot) I just feel very disconnected and on my own. Please don't shut
> me out. I would do anything to help you. When I get money I will give you
> it. If I can help you in any way I will. You're my boy and I love you so
> much. Thank you for replying to me. I want to kiss you a LOT.
>
> On Wed, Jun 1, 2011 at 10:00 PM, Barrett Brown <barriticus@gmail.com> wrote:
>
>> No, I was in Galveston with my mom for four terrible days and having to
>> deal with her neurotic nonsense and then I had Caleb get in town yesterday
>> when I got back and have had other things ongoing. It's not you I'm
>> disconnected from; it's just that my mind is occupied right now with trying
>> to figure out my next move, how to make this film script good enough to make
>> me enough money to get out of Dallas, trying to get al-Jazeera to run this
>> fucking piece without ruining it, etc, plus trying to assess what's going to
>> happen to me legally.
>>
>>
>> On Wed, Jun 1, 2011 at 3:52 PM, Emma Allan <emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com>wrote:
>>
>>> Did I do something to upset you? I know you're busy but it still hurts
>>> when you don't answer my messages.
>>>
>>> Please let me know if my emails irritate you and I'll stop. I'm not sure
>>> how it came about but I feel more disconnected from you than ever. It really
>>> hurts me.
>>>
>>
>>
>>
>> --
>> Regards,
>>
>> Barrett Brown
>> 512-560-2302
>>
>
>
>
> --
> Emma xx