On Wed, Jun 1, 2011 at 7:49 PM, Nikki Loehr <
evilevilcouch@gmail.com> wrote:
> It made me lol
>
> On Wed, Jun 1, 2011 at 7:47 PM, Barrett Brown <
barriticus@gmail.com> wrote:
>> I'm saying that I miss having sex with you. Last time we broke up you came
>> over and propositioned me; now I'm propositioning you. If you think that
>> somehow crosses a line or is shocking or whatever, that's fine.
>>
>> On Wed, Jun 1, 2011 at 7:40 PM, Nikki Loehr <
evilevilcouch@gmail.com> wrote:
>>>
>>> uh
>>>
>>> On Wed, Jun 1, 2011 at 7:39 PM, Barrett Brown <
barriticus@gmail.com>
>>> wrote:
>>> > We could have healthy boundaries via you coming over and letting me fuck
>>> > you
>>> > from behind.
>>> >
>>> > On Wed, Jun 1, 2011 at 7:04 PM, Nikki Loehr <
evilevilcouch@gmail.com>
>>> > wrote:
>>> >>
>>> >> lol
>>> >>
>>> >> I miss you too.
>>> >>
>>> >> Though it'd be a good idea to not be around each other in person for a
>>> >> while. You know, like, that whole having "healthy boundaries" and
>>> >> such, unlike how we rushed into everything in the beginning.
>>> >>
>>> >> btw when I blocked you on everything whenever ago so as to make it
>>> >> easier for both of us to move on and such; it's harder when you're
>>> >> reminded of the person on a daily basis. We were around each other
>>> >> every single day. That isn't particularly healthy.
>>> >>
>>> >> I'll unblock you from chat...eventually, hahahahaha
>>> >>
>>> >> I dunno, actions have consequences lol
>>> >>
>>> >>
>>> >> Oh yeah but anyway, what'd you hear from Gregg?
>>> >>
>>> >> Oh and also I invited my friends Damon and Mike (software engineers)
>>> >> along with like half a dozen other people to the Memorial Day party
>>> >> (WHICH WAS OMFG SO AWESOME AND AMAZING HOLY CRAP) and I mentioned crap
>>> >> that you were doing and they were all "blah blah blah." I would tell
>>> >> you what they said but I don't remember it so I told them they should
>>> >> tell you.
>>> >>
>>> >> Anyway, yeah.
>>> >>
>>> >> How've you been faring?
>>> >>
>>> >>
>>> >> On Wed, Jun 1, 2011 at 5:26 PM, Barrett Brown <
barriticus@gmail.com>
>>> >> wrote:
>>> >> > Well, wanted to make sure you're basically okay, health-wise, as I
>>> >> > was
>>> >> > worried about what you told me as well as what I'd heard from Gregg.
>>> >> > Also I
>>> >> > kind of miss you. I took you for granted to a large extent as I've
>>> >> > had a
>>> >> > lot
>>> >> > on my mind for obvious reasons. You should come over.
>>> >> > On Tue, May 31, 2011 at 10:28 PM, Nikki Loehr
>>> >> > <
evilevilcouch@gmail.com>
>>> >> > wrote:
>>> >> >>
>>> >> >> Okay, so, um...to what extent do you want updates?
>>> >> >> Like, I dunno
>>> >> >> I could tell you I'm sorta wired right now bc the coffee I made
>>> >> >> earlier
>>> >> >> with Mexican vanilla extract made it taste like candy, and I ate a
>>> >> >> box
>>> >> >> of
>>> >> >> cookies and am filled with sugar and spice and caffeine as
>>> >> >> preparation
>>> >> >> for
>>> >> >> tackling that Columbia essay tonight because it's due tomorrow and
>>> >> >> I'm
>>> >> >> a
>>> >> >> procrastinator (or I could use the excuse that I've been sick the
>>> >> >> past
>>> >> >> month, or just pull an artfag and say I was waiting for some
>>> >> >> "epiphany"
>>> >> >> of
>>> >> >> my "vision").
>>> >> >> Or I could give you updates as if you were my health insurance
>>> >> >> provider
>>> >> >> (with every dr visit, test performed, and Rx filled).
>>> >> >> Or I could give you updates as if you were my life insurance
>>> >> >> provider
>>> >> >> (which, in that case, I'm a non-smoker, quarterly perform
>>> >> >> triathlons,
>>> >> >> have
>>> >> >> never had a tooth cavity and split my downtime between saving
>>> >> >> puppies
>>> >> >> and
>>> >> >> volunteering at my local church).
>>> >> >> Like, I dunno. We haven't talked for a month. I have no idea wtf to
>>> >> >> say.
>>> >> >> It's sorta like the awkwardness of a coworker sending you a
>>> >> >> screenshot
>>> >> >> of
>>> >> >> whatever they're working on, but you happen to notice a folder on
>>> >> >> their
>>> >> >> desktop that says "She-Male Porn."
>>> >> >> Or like your boss whom you work closely with texting you a photo of
>>> >> >> his
>>> >> >> "eclectically decorated hotel room" while on vacation in Mexico,
>>> >> >> where
>>> >> >> you
>>> >> >> happen to notice the chrome plated cocktail shaker in the
>>> >> >> foreground,
>>> >> >> reflecting two naked boys eating grapes whilst lounging on his bed.
>>> >> >>
>>> >> >> ...
>>> >> >> Okay so maybe we didn't have that whole Catholic priest / altar boy
>>> >> >> relationship in a past life.
>>> >> >> sooo anyway...
>>> >> >> I'm fine right now. It gets sorta scary/stressful when dealing with
>>> >> >> it.
>>> >> >> I
>>> >> >> could elaborate on it all, but if you haven't noticed thus far I'm
>>> >> >> on a
>>> >> >> caffeine/sugar rush and this email's far too long as it is.
>>> >> >> But, man, those Swedish chocolate mint cookies sure are awesome.
>>> >> >>
>>> >> >>
>>> >> >> On May 30, 2011, at 6:41 PM, Barrett Brown <
barriticus@gmail.com>
>>> >> >> wrote:
>>> >> >>
>>> >> >> I hope everything's okay and that you get well. Do whatever the
>>> >> >> doctors
>>> >> >> tell you, take whatever medications you need to take and let me know
>>> >> >> how
>>> >> >> you're doing.
>>> >> >>
>>> >> >> On Thu, May 26, 2011 at 5:00 PM, Nikki Loehr
>>> >> >> <
evilevilcouch@gmail.com>
>>> >> >> wrote:
>>> >> >>>
>>> >> >>> Hi. I'm not entirely cognizant at the moment, but I just wanted to
>>> >> >>> make
>>> >> >>> sure you knew that I haven't harbored any hatred or anger towards
>>> >> >>> you.
>>> >> >>> Yeah
>>> >> >>> there was a lot of bullshit but I don't really care. That shit
>>> >> >>> doesn't
>>> >> >>> matter when you're faced with a chronic illness.
>>> >> >>>
>>> >> >>> I dunno what's wrong right now, but my friend from HS (that dude
>>> >> >>> Adrian
>>> >> >>> apart of the "cockblock brigade" when you met me) took me to the ER
>>> >> >>> this
>>> >> >>> afternoon.
>>> >> >>>
>>> >> >>> So far they've done an EKG, took an x-ray of my heart, stuck a
>>> >> >>> catheter
>>> >> >>> in my urethra, stuck an IV drip in my arm, and I'm about to get a
>>> >> >>> CAT
>>> >> >>> scan
>>> >> >>> so they can look at my brain or something. I dunno, I may have had
>>> >> >>> a
>>> >> >>> micro-stroke or some heart thing related to the anemia. The left
>>> >> >>> side
>>> >> >>> of my
>>> >> >>> face and parts of my left arm were sorta numb.
>>> >> >>>
>>> >> >>> But yeah, like, seriously dude, the past is in the past. I really
>>> >> >>> don't
>>> >> >>> give a shot about all of the crazy shit from back then. Whats the
>>> >> >>> point in
>>> >> >>> focusing on the negative? How is that pleasant in any manner?
>>> >> >>> Theres
>>> >> >>> so much
>>> >> >>> pain and death externally, I choose to not have that within my own
>>> >> >>> mind.
>>> >> >>> Yeah, there's physical pain, but I didnt cause it. The doctors are
>>> >> >>> trying to
>>> >> >>> figure that out. All I know is that I don't want to die and that I
>>> >> >>> do
>>> >> >>> love
>>> >> >>> you in whatever way that is. I love you as much as I love my Nadya,
>>> >> >>> though I
>>> >> >>> don't want to be in a relationship with anyone for a very long
>>> >> >>> while,
>>> >> >>> so
>>> >> >>> don't worry about me just jumping to the next fool or whatever.
>>> >> >>> That
>>> >> >>> always
>>> >> >>> hurts to see that after a breakup. lol if anything, I really just
>>> >> >>> want
>>> >> >>> a few
>>> >> >>> cabana boys to give me massages and take out my trash, hahaha. I
>>> >> >>> get
>>> >> >>> pretty
>>> >> >>> cranky when dudes get in my personal space lololol. Yeah I've gone
>>> >> >>> on
>>> >> >>> "dates" but I'm basically just getting out of the house and the
>>> >> >>> dudes
>>> >> >>> insist
>>> >> >>> on paying. I guess im partially entertained by the novelty. lol,
>>> >> >>> man,
>>> >> >>> it's
>>> >> >>> sort of hilarious I must say, but maybe I just don't care because
>>> >> >>> my
>>> >> >>> interests and priorities are invested elsewhere. In that, like, I
>>> >> >>> don't
>>> >> >>> wanna die.
>>> >> >>>
>>> >> >>> Anyway, don't feel weird about shit. The only way for you to move
>>> >> >>> on
>>> >> >>> with
>>> >> >>> clarity is if you are able to forgive yourself.
>>> >> >>>
>>> >> >>> But yeah I dunno if I'll be able to go home from the hospital
>>> >> >>> tonight
>>> >> >>> or
>>> >> >>> whenever I'll get out. Fucking magnets.
>>> >> >>>
>>> >> >>> HOPE YOU'RE DOING SWELL, SON. KEEP ROCKIN THE FUCK OUT or whatever
>>> >> >>> the
>>> >> >>> fuck. Yeah.
>>> >> >>>
>>> >> >>> Man it's cold here I want another fucking blanket. Pft, bitches.
>>> >> >>>
>>> >> >>> Hey at least I'm more
>>> >> >>>
>>> >> >>> Oh CAT scan time gtg
>>> >> >>>
>>> >> >>> Sent from my iPhone
>>> >> >>
>>> >> >>
>>> >> >> --
>>> >> >> Regards,
>>> >> >>
>>> >> >> Barrett Brown
>>> >> >>
512-560-2302
>>> >> >
>>> >> >
>>> >> >
>>> >> > --
>>> >> > Regards,
>>> >> >
>>> >> > Barrett Brown
>>> >> >
512-560-2302
>>> >> >
>>> >
>>> >
>>> >
>>> > --
>>> > Regards,
>>> >
>>> > Barrett Brown
>>> >
512-560-2302
>>> >
>>
>>
>>
>> --
>> Regards,
>>
>> Barrett Brown
>>
512-560-2302
>>
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