I’d been out of work for a month
and knew it was time to get going
on my job search. So I got out
of bed, gazed out the window, looked
for a job, saw nothing that interested
me, crawled under the covers again
and fell back to sleep.
An hour later, I got up, brewed
coffee, made it strong, the color
of wet road, then traveled a mile
with my throat until the pot was empty.
I didn’t go out at all the day
before but knew everything worth
missing was just outside my door
in the paper. Even with Monday
folded over with a crease through
noon, fifty cents seemed too
expensive for a day I basically
slept through.
The lead story reported a man
was shot just a few blocks
away, and though I hate guns,
I rifled through the rest of the paper,
tossed it on the floor then went
over to the refrigerator, even though
I don’t believe in miracles and opened
it. None was going to take place on
that day either: no food appeared
just an old piece of steak I cooked once,
that looked raw as last December.
With the temperature reaching
for 90º again and knowing
it shouldn’t reach for anything
beyond its grasp, I decided to get
dressed and walk over to St. James.
It’s a Catholic church but since
the saints inside are still concrete,
I like to go in on weekdays where
it’s cool, dark and empty. The strange
part is it feels like home. I’ve decided
it’s the candles who look like my
relatives. Irish. Each flame a jig,
lit up on Guinness instead of matches.
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