I might have to get back on it soon. I have terrible cravings and am now working for Steve Bargo and will thus have money. I don't feel confident in being clean yet. I also hope you will understand that my attitude lately is shaped by withdrawals and the knowledge that I have passed a certain point that I have known to be coming for a long time and that it is going to be a difficult road for me no matter how much money I make. I would like at least one family member to love me.