evilevilcouch@gmail.com: oh l'amourrrrrrrrrr evilevilcouch@gmail.com: broke my heart now i'm aching for youuu evilevilcouch@gmail.com: mon amourrrrrrrr evilevilcouch@gmail.com: what's a boy in love supposed to doooo evilevilcouch@gmail.com: loooking for you you were looking for mee evilevilcouch@gmail.com: always reaching for you you were too blind to seee evilevilcouch@gmail.com: oh love of my heart evilevilcouch@gmail.com: why leave me alone evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i'm falling apart evilevilcouch@gmail.com: no good on my own evilevilcouch@gmail.com: OH L'AMOURRRRRRR evilevilcouch@gmail.com: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l8EZrwWPU2s evilevilcouch@gmail.com: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XH0SoZNdozs evilevilcouch@gmail.com: WATCH THE VIDEOS evilevilcouch@gmail.com: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uttV1VZUgQQ evilevilcouch@gmail.com: btw we have to meet charity and joey. you will like them evilevilcouch@gmail.com: they're some of my nerd friends from denton evilevilcouch@gmail.com: they've been living in germany for the past nine months or so evilevilcouch@gmail.com: they're visiting next weekend evilevilcouch@gmail.com: them and their friends are all super smart and nerdy and you'll love them evilevilcouch@gmail.com: charity and joey also have tried to get me to sleep with them a bunch so i've kept my distance evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i feel bad cause i've been a flake to them, but they've tried to do me so that's why i've been flakey evilevilcouch@gmail.com: lol evilevilcouch@gmail.com: oh, interesting evilevilcouch@gmail.com: apparently i'm "ambisexual" evilevilcouch@gmail.com: though i'd prob put myself between "heteroflexible" and "ambisexual" evilevilcouch@gmail.com: ambisexual = 3 on the kinsey scale evilevilcouch@gmail.com: kinsey tests i've taken in the past put me at a 2 evilevilcouch@gmail.com: which is more heteroflexible evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i think i vary between 2 and 3 evilevilcouch@gmail.com: so i'd prob just put myself at 2.5 evilevilcouch@gmail.com: because i enjoy sex with females, though i wouldn't call myself "bi" evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i can't pursue a serious, emotional long-term relationship with a female other than platonic me: I don't do math evilevilcouch@gmail.com: lol me: talked to the NSA a bit earlier me: told them we have Stuxnet and will keep it safe evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i like having sex with women and they turn me on, but i moreso identify with being hetero evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i prefer penis than vag evilevilcouch@gmail.com: vag = turns me on evilevilcouch@gmail.com: penis = gets me off evilevilcouch@gmail.com: that's the difference evilevilcouch@gmail.com: lol me: speaking of lol me: "Read the linked article on dailykos. They still don't get it. They think all I know is their irc names!!!!! I know their real fing names. Karen I need u to help moderate me because I am getting angry. I am planning on releasing a few names of folks that were already arrested. This battle between us will help spur publicity anyway." evilevilcouch@gmail.com: yep evilevilcouch@gmail.com: THIS IS DIRE evilevilcouch@gmail.com: http://www.facebook.com/permalink.php?story_fbid=100731600005890&id=23901593 evilevilcouch@gmail.com: PLEASE INFORM evilevilcouch@gmail.com: maow maow whatchu doin? me: gabbing with reporters, overseeing Anon, writing e-mails for Steve Bargo to his various corrupt political friends evilevilcouch@gmail.com: steve bargo? me: financier guy, hangs around our office me: it's a weird fucking office me: all sorts of shit goes down here me: Iranians, Saudis, good ol boys, Pentacostals, Jews from all over the place me: Chinese evilevilcouch@gmail.com: teehee evilevilcouch@gmail.com: hey me: yes evilevilcouch@gmail.com: what was emma's response to that twitter post? me: what do you think it was? me: she's ready to dump her new boyfriend for me at a moment's notice evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i do not know evilevilcouch@gmail.com: well evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i do not think that's fair to her to lead her on like that evilevilcouch@gmail.com: but if you're not leading her on evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i don't know me: I wasn't me: I was still pissed at you evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i would like to know your intentions me: my intentions are to figure out if I'm going to be able to marry you evilevilcouch@gmail.com: well me: And that's going to depend on whether you can (a) me: follow security instructions evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i would like us to communicate more openly evilevilcouch@gmail.com: pft me: (b) stop blaming me for shit me: (c) me: acknowledge that you cannot contradict yourself from sentence to sentence if you want me to take you seriously evilevilcouch@gmail.com: don't give me ultimatums (re: "security instruction" ) me: (d) me: See me: That right there. evilevilcouch@gmail.com: what? me: First of all, that's not an ultimatum me: This is not an equal partnership in terms of my work me: My work is unusual evilevilcouch@gmail.com: you said it in a very caustic manner me: Good evilevilcouch@gmail.com: you could say me: That's how I meant it evilevilcouch@gmail.com: :( me: I could give you a lot of pleasant rephrasings of a lot of shit you've told me evilevilcouch@gmail.com: well evilevilcouch@gmail.com: we should work on that together then me: Very well evilevilcouch@gmail.com: we've been very dumb to each other lately me: But we're not going to "work on" security protocol evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and i am sorry for giving into such stupids me: You're going to do exactly what I tell you regarding that. That's the only thing. evilevilcouch@gmail.com: it would be nice if you would have informed me of shit beforehand evilevilcouch@gmail.com: instead of just having q kick me me: I didn't realize I had to evilevilcouch@gmail.com: do you know what he said to me? me: yes me: Everything else, we can work on and negotiate me: security, no. evilevilcouch@gmail.com: hold on, i'm trying to find it evilevilcouch@gmail.com: either way me: doesn't matter evilevilcouch@gmail.com: he said something about "consensus decision" etc me: yeah evilevilcouch@gmail.com: no, it does evilevilcouch@gmail.com: do you know what the fuckers said to me when they banned me from that stupid fucking forum five years ago? me: no, I mean these people aren't going to deal with your shit either evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i know you do not realize that is a soft spot for me evilevilcouch@gmail.com: but the manner in which it was done evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i was not fond of evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and it made me feel back in that place me: you know what's a soft spot for me? me: security me: you know why? evilevilcouch@gmail.com: you could have PMed me and explained evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and i would have respected it me: I didn't have time me: and you're going to have to learn to respect it anyway evilevilcouch@gmail.com: that's not fair me: people's lives are at stake. evilevilcouch@gmail.com: barrett evilevilcouch@gmail.com: please evilevilcouch@gmail.com: just, slow down a bit me: you have zero say within Anonymous. You haven't earned it. me: I have. me: on IRC evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i don't care evilevilcouch@gmail.com: that isn't the point me: you do what I tell you evilevilcouch@gmail.com: no me: It is to me me: then don't go on evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i have a right to be in #reporter in that i have worked in the media industry and still have strong ties to various media outlets evilevilcouch@gmail.com: do i really care about being in there? evilevilcouch@gmail.com: not really evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i was simply in there me: or go date someone who's not responsible for a lot of people evilevilcouch@gmail.com: but kicking me in that manner was very rude me: we kick reporters out evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and i do not appreciate you "testing" me me: when we have to me: I wasn't testing you evilevilcouch@gmail.com: that is fine, and i understand that evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i am saying right now evilevilcouch@gmail.com: you listing off these things and ultimatums evilevilcouch@gmail.com: it isn't fair to do so or test me like this evilevilcouch@gmail.com: can we not be so combative? evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i'm sorry i have been lately evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i usually am not evilevilcouch@gmail.com: it's more a reaction, than anything evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i'm never particularly combative with people i love, but only am so when they become very aggressive toward me evilevilcouch@gmail.com: but, usually, i simply fold evilevilcouch@gmail.com: because i love them evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and i dislike conflict evilevilcouch@gmail.com: but you've helped me stand up for myself more, and for some reason i have been much more combative because of that evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i'd rather not evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i just want to love you evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i don't like conflict on a regular basis evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i don't particularly ever have this problem with anyone evilevilcouch@gmail.com: but we got super close super quickly evilevilcouch@gmail.com: => we exposed our super vulnerabilities to each other super quickly evilevilcouch@gmail.com: much more quickly than any relationship i've had evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and you're just more naturally warring/aggressive and stuff evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and so i guess that's your natural reaction to when you're sensing the potential to be hurt or so evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and i don't know how to communicate with someone when they're like that evilevilcouch@gmail.com: in that like, i don't know how to say things and have them listen when they're being super aggressive evilevilcouch@gmail.com: cause usually the aggressive/defensive stance is one that puts up a wall evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and i don't know how to get through walls evilevilcouch@gmail.com: usually i just give that person space when they get like that so they can calm down and we can discuss it later evilevilcouch@gmail.com: but we haven't had our space; we've been together every single day for the past month and a half evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and i don't know why you're going on about stuff about me "contradicting myself" -- is that really the point? like, regardless of however retarded or non-retarded i may explain something, isn't the idea to try and communicate? evilevilcouch@gmail.com: like, regardless of whether or not i am concise or "contradict myself" (which i don't feel i particularly have, but that isn't the point), isn't the idea getting to the root of the issue, instead of criticizing the route in which one may try to get to the root of the issue? me: a shaky foundation causes failure me: always evilevilcouch@gmail.com: what is that in reference to? me: the fact that you think a dynamic exists me: does not mean it really does evilevilcouch@gmail.com: dynamic of what? me: the person who complains the most is not necessarily the one who is most right me: like that roommate of yours evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i never said i was most right evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i can only speak for myself me: yes, it matters if you contradict yourself or make some flawed argument as to what happens between us evilevilcouch@gmail.com: :( me: it confuses you evilevilcouch@gmail.com: you're hurting me me: prompts you to criticize me for things I haven't done evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i'm gonna go cry now evilevilcouch@gmail.com: ttyl me: I'd suggest thinking about what I'm saying instead me: that's me communicating evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i can't evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i'm crying evilevilcouch@gmail.com: you're being mean me: oh, did I tell you that I thought about someone else while we fucked? evilevilcouch@gmail.com: alright evilevilcouch@gmail.com: that happens sometimes evilevilcouch@gmail.com: heh evilevilcouch@gmail.com: well, at least you made me chuckle just then me: good evilevilcouch@gmail.com: babybutt evilevilcouch@gmail.com: why u so meanx0rz? evilevilcouch@gmail.com: we're both very sensitive evilevilcouch@gmail.com: we just express it in different ways evilevilcouch@gmail.com: you get angreh evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i get sadsads evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i don't want to hurt you anymore evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i don't want you to hurt me anymore evilevilcouch@gmail.com: you need loves evilevilcouch@gmail.com: you deserve loves evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i would never cheat on you evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i would never leave you evilevilcouch@gmail.com: can you ever step out of your fury when you're in it? evilevilcouch@gmail.com: like, i mean, i don't know if you're able to evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i'm genuinely asking me: I'm not angry evilevilcouch@gmail.com: in general me: having said that evilevilcouch@gmail.com: are you able to? me: you've got to understand that right now I am very tense evilevilcouch@gmail.com: why are you tense? evilevilcouch@gmail.com: not that i am that retarded evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i want you to explain to me me: srsly? me: I have Stuxnet. evilevilcouch@gmail.com: what else? me: I'm at war with several different government agencies evilevilcouch@gmail.com: you're withdrawing from opiates me: I am personally being discussed by the FBI, etc me: that too me: I am responsible for a lot of people me: strategy me: the decisions I make now me: are going to impact a lot of people evilevilcouch@gmail.com: /me nod me: like, millions evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i believe in you evilevilcouch@gmail.com: :) me: I'm not worried me: it's just tense evilevilcouch@gmail.com: well, you're tense evilevilcouch@gmail.com: heh me: I can't help being tense anyway evilevilcouch@gmail.com: why is that? me: I'm just a tense person. I take things seriously. evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i understand evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i take things seriously as well evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i'm naturally very anxiety ridden and neurotic evilevilcouch@gmail.com: we have to learn how to deal with our anxiety and stressors as they come, so as to deal with them as well as possible evilevilcouch@gmail.com: do you need a massage, honeybear? evilevilcouch@gmail.com: you're overwhelmed right now evilevilcouch@gmail.com: you need to step outside of yourself and breathe me: hold on a sec evilevilcouch@gmail.com: okie evilevilcouch@gmail.com: btw evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i believe you evilevilcouch@gmail.com: in the context evilevilcouch@gmail.com: of a civil war going to happen in america evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i do not know how it will happen evilevilcouch@gmail.com: but i've never not believed you on it evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i saw it myself evilevilcouch@gmail.com: like, the things glenn greenwald goes over in that column evilevilcouch@gmail.com: it will be about that me: yes me: it will evilevilcouch@gmail.com: hey buttbutt, do you not think you'll have time tonight to go to that thing? evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i can understand if you are too busy to evilevilcouch@gmail.com: but it may be good for you -- to take a break from this and get outside of your head and all this stuff for a bit to relax/recuperate evilevilcouch@gmail.com: just for an hour or so evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and i can drop you back off at your place evilevilcouch@gmail.com: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l2vU8U0j_4E evilevilcouch@gmail.com: baby me: sorry, was in dox war me: don't think I can come out tonight me: still busy evilevilcouch@gmail.com: alright evilevilcouch@gmail.com: your tweet is still there evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i'm going to guess that you still have her in mind as plan b me: no evilevilcouch@gmail.com: oh well me: why would I take down the tweet? evilevilcouch@gmail.com: it makes me sad evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and encourages her evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and leads her on evilevilcouch@gmail.com: or maybe it doesn't lead her on me: Better you be a little sad now and realize how pissed you've made me and maybe learn from it me: than this continue to its logical conclusion evilevilcouch@gmail.com: huh? evilevilcouch@gmail.com: which logical conclusion? evilevilcouch@gmail.com: it isn't really that bit that makes me sad evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i don't know me: me breaking up with you next time you pull shit me: that conlusion evilevilcouch@gmail.com: well evilevilcouch@gmail.com: why did you tell me you love me yesterday? me: because I love you evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i don't want us to cause each other pain anymore evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i don't want to talk about breaking up anymore evilevilcouch@gmail.com: it's not healthy evilevilcouch@gmail.com: we can't talk like that evilevilcouch@gmail.com: we need to speak to each other more positively evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i'm saying this for myself as well evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i need to be more positive for you and not succumb to my worries, fears, anger, or doubts evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i need to trust you more evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i need to love you more evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i need to find strength when you feel you're slipping evilevilcouch@gmail.com: you need to do the same for me evilevilcouch@gmail.com: we need to do all of that for each other evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and we both haven't evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and it's horrible of both of us me: I know evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i am ashamed for my behavior evilevilcouch@gmail.com: it's out of character for me evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and i am sorry evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i don't want it to be like that anymore evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i'm sorry evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i'm sad right now evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i took my mood stabilizers so i wouldn't harm myself evilevilcouch@gmail.com: (i have a tendency to do that, well, over the past few years it's more just been ideations than anything) evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i'm sorry i've fallen to stupid stupid behaviors and actions with you evilevilcouch@gmail.com: it's immature of me evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and i should know better evilevilcouch@gmail.com: we're both very strong personalities evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and when we're wronged, we both are out for blood evilevilcouch@gmail.com: we're both very powerful individuals evilevilcouch@gmail.com: we should not use this against each other evilevilcouch@gmail.com: that's silly evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and it's stupid on both our parts evilevilcouch@gmail.com: we're a team evilevilcouch@gmail.com: not a civil war evilevilcouch@gmail.com: that's outside evilevilcouch@gmail.com: not between us evilevilcouch@gmail.com: we're so much stronger when we have love on our side and smiles on our backs evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and giggles and kittens in our pockets evilevilcouch@gmail.com: :D evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i'm just going to need some time by myself for a while evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i need to recharge evilevilcouch@gmail.com: narf evilevilcouch@gmail.com: narf? me: lol sorry me: was doing stuff evilevilcouch@gmail.com: it happens evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i just wondered what your response to all the above was me: I agree. I'm sorry too. I love you. me: get your uniform evilevilcouch@gmail.com: lol evilevilcouch@gmail.com: :-p evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i just want us to be happy :( evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and i know the stuff you're doing is all very, very important and pivotal evilevilcouch@gmail.com: but i know it stresses you out bunches evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and i know you're learning how to better manage your stress evilevilcouch@gmail.com: re: no more opiates evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and i'm not saying i'm much better at managing stress evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i obviously went a different route evilevilcouch@gmail.com: but it was similar in that in order to work so hard and so much with such dire stuff, one usually turns their emotions off evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and has to act like a robot evilevilcouch@gmail.com: in order to be efficient with one's energies evilevilcouch@gmail.com: but robot-mode isn't conducive toward relationships evilevilcouch@gmail.com: lol evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i didn't have any serious relationships when i worked a ton evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i had no time/energy for anyone other than myself and my career evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i'm not saying i don't want you to do any of this evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i'm just afraid of how it will affect us evilevilcouch@gmail.com: because it's only going to get a lot harder evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and it's the beginning of our relationship evilevilcouch@gmail.com: we need to be able to talk about these sorts of things together evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and establish this open mode of communication evilevilcouch@gmail.com: cause you're going to get more stressed, more tense evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and we're going to have to figure out better modes of dealing with stress evilevilcouch@gmail.com: because we've obviously failed each other at it already, lol evilevilcouch@gmail.com: we r doin it wrongg evilevilcouch@gmail.com: narf?? me: sorry, we're finding out new shit me: there's another company me: that was involved in HBGary evilevilcouch@gmail.com: oh evilevilcouch@gmail.com: you'll like this song evilevilcouch@gmail.com: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HfYw-pM-91Q evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i'd post it on the irc but i'm taking a break from it for a long while evilevilcouch@gmail.com: it's a nice threat song evilevilcouch@gmail.com: haha me: lol good me: let me see me: just called several people evilevilcouch@gmail.com: fer wut me: for luz/ruin me: several people me: who thought their work with HBGary was secret me: LOLOLOLOLOL evilevilcouch@gmail.com: heh evilevilcouch@gmail.com: hm? me: we're still figuring out the details me: but we'll figure it out by tomorrow evilevilcouch@gmail.com: listen to the song evilevilcouch@gmail.com: :) evilevilcouch@gmail.com: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=frtm7qrcG8U evilevilcouch@gmail.com: :) evilevilcouch@gmail.com: that one's from me to you! :D evilevilcouch@gmail.com: er, the lyrics aren't that particularly pertinent evilevilcouch@gmail.com: /me listening to hip hop evilevilcouch@gmail.com: teehee evilevilcouch@gmail.com: :) evilevilcouch@gmail.com: music is healing for me evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and dancing!!! :D evilevilcouch@gmail.com: listening to music makes me want to dance evilevilcouch@gmail.com: well, not all the lyrics evilevilcouch@gmail.com: hip hop talks about money evilevilcouch@gmail.com: because evilevilcouch@gmail.com: that is hip hop evilevilcouch@gmail.com: I'VE GOT SCRILLA BITCHEZZZZ evilevilcouch@gmail.com: etc