evilevilcouch@gmail.com: rar evilevilcouch@gmail.com: did chris say when he'll prob arrive? me: twenty minutes me: about twenty minutes ago evilevilcouch@gmail.com: k evilevilcouch@gmail.com: lol evilevilcouch@gmail.com: k evilevilcouch@gmail.com: hey baby i want to bring some of my stuff to my place evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i haven't been there in forever evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i've bscly been living at your place for the past month evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i love being with you but i need to stay at my place till your life evens out a bit evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i don't have my own space there evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i require my own space evilevilcouch@gmail.com: it's hard for me to get the resolve to do all that though cause it's supa cold outside and i love being with you evilevilcouch@gmail.com: again, like i said, it's like i'm sorta addicted evilevilcouch@gmail.com: but it's getting better, like, i got over here at a normal time me: I know, I've been telling you that evilevilcouch@gmail.com: well, i know, but like evilevilcouch@gmail.com: it's hard for some reason for me evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i think part of my reluctance for not being at my place more over the past few weeks was because i knew that my presence was helpful in some manner for you evilevilcouch@gmail.com: but it's messed me up in the head more than anything atm evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and my body aches evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i'm getting too sucked into your world me: yeah, I don't want you freaking out and crying over here when you get upset, so I'd rather you be there and getting your work done so you'll be hapy evilevilcouch@gmail.com: heh evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i mean, it's better now, but my body is aching evilevilcouch@gmail.com: somethings stagnant inside evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i don't like it me: get it checked out if it doesn't go away evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i'm speaking in a more eastern way evilevilcouch@gmail.com: haha evilevilcouch@gmail.com: it's like my mind has lost connection to my body and the here and now and rest of reality and my former self evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and i'm just lost in you evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and that's not healthy evilevilcouch@gmail.com: it's not healthy at all me: nope me: again, I agree with you evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i want to help you all i can but i'm fucking myself over in the process evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and i'm forgetting myself me: I don't need you to do those things, so please don't fuck yourself over evilevilcouch@gmail.com: my flow of energy has been all jumbled me: all I really need from you is a couple of posters evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i don't really know what i'm doing on the day to day and feel a bit lost evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i've lost my sense of time evilevilcouch@gmail.com: usually i'm very cognizant of time me: and you're not able to get your own work done either, so really you need get back in your schedule evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and its passing evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and am able to plan about my day well evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and my week evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and allocate varying time slots for the various things that i need to do evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i need to quit the IRC stuffs evilevilcouch@gmail.com: for like a week or something me: that's fine evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i need to get my head back on straight evilevilcouch@gmail.com: it all lopped off evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and i just feel silly because i wished that you'd have helped me to do this in the beginning evilevilcouch@gmail.com: but i got so wrapped up in it all evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and you preferred staying at your place more evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and i conceded evilevilcouch@gmail.com: because you said you were getting off of suboxone evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and i didn't want to cause you more stress evilevilcouch@gmail.com: but then i just ended up being stressed the entire time evilevilcouch@gmail.com: it's not healthy evilevilcouch@gmail.com: but i don't know how to tell you things evilevilcouch@gmail.com: oh crap gtg i think chris is here evilevilcouch@gmail.com: oh wait nm me: I'm not sure I agree with your account of what happened evilevilcouch@gmail.com: oh i'm being very abstract evilevilcouch@gmail.com: oh wait he's here nm me: he can't get in gate me: he just called me: I know you're upset in general right now but I'm kind of freaked out that you think that's a fair rendition of what happened me: additionally, I told you several times that you should spend more time at studio or home and you didn't do itr me: I can't control you and I shouldn't