I love you. You know I'll take whatever contact with you that I can
get because of the effect you have on me. The way you make me respond
from so far away always blew my mind.
Its sex but its so deep inside me and the feelings are so raw and hard
and uninhibited. You make me want all the things I've been taught were
wrong. The incest, the dogs, the being stripped bare of convention,
the conflict, the rape,You make me free.

On 1/11/11, Barrett Brown <barriticus@gmail.com> wrote:

I appreciate it. Look, I don't know what's going to happen with all of this
and I don't want to keep causing you confusion and pain. Give me a couple of
days for me to think and figure things out.

On Mon, Jan 10, 2011 at 3:03 PM, emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com <
emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com> wrote:

I've passed on your message and she saw your *like* of her status which
she
took as a peace offering.

I'm trying to get over you. Love leaves one crying in the darkness. A
simple phrase like lets be friends turns into a glass splinter working its
way into ones heart. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind.
Its
a soul hurt. A real gets inside you and rips you apart pain.

It will take a while to get over you. I still cry. I still feel incredibly
sad. I still love you. I can't stop. I'm sorry to keep saying it, but I
honestly feel it still. The wall that is between us now upsets me. The
hard
emotionless contact. I'm sorry, it upsets me. I wish I could go back in
time
and have those times with you again.

I move into the flat next Friday (21st) Jessica is very excited. Her new
bedroom is half the size of her old one but she doesn't seem to mind. The
address is 3 Hawthorn Mews, Gosforth, Newcastle NE3 4DA. You know my
mobile
number. If you need help, Barrett, you know how to contact me. I'll always
help you in whatever way I can.


On Mon, Jan 10, 2011 at 8:31 PM, Barrett Brown
<barriticus@gmail.com>wrote:

I'm so sorry. Tell her I understand completely, she was sticking up for
her mom and understandably so. This is hard for everyone, including me,
whether or not it seems that way to you.


On Mon, Jan 10, 2011 at 2:28 PM, emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com <
emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com> wrote:

I have just had Jessica crying in my arms about this. I don't want her
upset anymore so I've asked her not to reply to your message and told
her
not to worry. She feels bad about saying some of the things she said
because
she genuinely likes you a lot, even after all this. She is a lovely girl
and
I don't want you to think she's being rude or bad mannered but I want
her to
concentrate on her exams and not to worry about me anymore.

I hope everything works out for you. I hope we can still be friends.
Good
luck, sweetheart.

love Emma
--
Emma xx

--
Regards,

Barrett Brown
512-560-2302

--
Emma xx

--
Regards,

Barrett Brown
512-560-2302

-- 
Emma xx