Re: Bricks
Subject: Re: Bricks
From: "emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com" <emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com>
Date: 1/9/11, 17:31
To: Barrett Brown <barriticus@gmail.com>

How can you say I claimed it? This is awful, its an awful thing to say. I never fabricated my love for you and you know that. 

I am in love with you. It hurts more that you would say that I *claimed* to be in love with you. Like I imagined it or lied to you. I was not making up my feelings, Barrett. I was, I am in love with you and it is horrible. This is all horrible. I would have done anything for you and I am only sorry I did not come sooner. I'll always regret that. You have no idea how much. But the fact remains that we were fine and then suddenly it was all over. Just like that. You make it sound like I rejected you and thats why you had to go out and find someone else. (?) I didn't reject you. I was oblivious to the reality of the situation until I saw those videos. On the contrary I was rejected totally by you, overnight.

The difference is that you had my heart and I could not have thought about going out to meet anyone else because I loved you. I still do thats why this hurts so much and why I can't bear to think that you have done this to me in the way you did. 

On Sun, Jan 9, 2011 at 10:20 PM, Barrett Brown <barriticus@gmail.com> wrote:
I did care about you and would have pursued this if you had come to me like you repeatedly said you would. You didn't. I even offered to help pay for you to come and you didn't. At some point I had to make a decision between someone who claimed to be in love with me but was already breaking her promises and having an actual relationship with someone who was willing to commit.


On Sun, Jan 9, 2011 at 4:15 PM, emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com <emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com> wrote:
You know, you hurt me so much. I never thought you'd do that. Ever. I totally thought this was it, my big love. I'd found him. All this time I thought it would be okay. I was talking to Jessica today about you after I had finally read the message you sent her, where you sign off with * I love you both* and I said he wouldn't say that, you know, if he didn't mean it. And I still had hope. I still thought you'd come through. But it seems words are cheap.
How stupid I am. I could not be more trusting and naive. I suppose none of this touches you. You stopped caring about me, if you ever actually did care anything about me, a long time ago. 


On Sun, Jan 9, 2011 at 9:54 PM, emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com <emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com> wrote:
I don't want to know that. Just leave me alone. I don't want to know anything about whats going on with her. 


On Sun, Jan 9, 2011 at 9:50 PM, Barrett Brown <barriticus@gmail.com> wrote:
I may take you up some day. I should tell you that things have gotten very serious very quickly with this girl. 


On Sat, Jan 8, 2011 at 5:27 PM, emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com <emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com> wrote:
Going to view this flat on Monday with Jessica. http://www.rightmove.co.uk/property-to-rent/property-28716292.html Then Jessica goes back to school on Tuesday. I start my research post on Monday. Hours are flexible which means I can work through the night, weekends or whenever I like. 

I hope you'll consider coming to stay with us. 

We should hopefully move in on the 15th. 

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Emma xx



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Regards,

Barrett Brown
512-560-2302



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Emma xx



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Emma xx



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Regards,

Barrett Brown
512-560-2302



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Emma xx