I'm going for a walk
Subject: I'm going for a walk
From: "emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com" <emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com>
Date: 1/5/11, 08:57
To: Barrett Brown <barriticus@gmail.com>

Barrett, dearest, reading those old emails has upset me so much I wish I hadn't. I now feel that all of this is my fault entirely. You were, indeed, are, obviously in love with me and for whatever stupid reason, insecurity, whatever it was, I allowed my fears to get the better of me and didn't make every effort to come to Texas. Yes, my personal money was tight but I could have used a credit card easily - Jessica has school etc but I arrange childcare all the time so it would not have been even an obstacle. 

I have missed a major chance, a major turning point in my life. I missed it then but I won't miss it this time. My whole focus  now is on having you. Nothing will get in my way, And I cannot wait. God, I want it so much, I ache for it. 

I'm going to walk in the woods, find some twigs and strap them together into a bundle and whip myself with them. When we do eventually meet and you have me naked and on all fours on the ground I want you to tell me to arch my back further, stick my bottom out, spread my legs wider apart until I'm totally exposed. Then I want you to use your full hand and smack my cunt hard. 



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Emma xx