If I come to Dallas as soon as I Can and we've met etc you will be
mine? The rest I Can cope with. I love your work. Do that as much as
you like. Everything is uncertain so no change there. I will kill any
girl who comes near you. I mean that.

On 1/4/11, Barrett Brown <barriticus@gmail.com> wrote:

I don't know exactly yet. You would have to accept that my work will always
come first and that I'm going to be inclined to date other girls so long as
we have not actually met, for instance. You'd also have to steel yourself
for a very uncertain future.


On Mon, Jan 3, 2011 at 11:13 PM, emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com <
emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com> wrote:

I will help you with all of that. Your addiction problems do not phase
me. Not in the slightest. Not a bit. I long to help you through it.
I'm aching for you Barrett. I've been through so much myself - I have
so much life experience, I am certain I can have a positive effect on
your life. Just tell me what I can do. Tell me how to best help.
Please please come back to me. Please. What can I do to make this
right?

On 1/4/11, Barrett Brown <barriticus@gmail.com> wrote:

No, that's not what it means. It means that this is not a good time for

me

to be engaged in an exclusive and monogamous long-distance relationship,

and

that at any rate I don't know what's going to happen in terms of my
"activism" nor my addiction problems and would not be comfortable, say,
moving in with you and Jess until I am more stable in several ways.

On Mon, Jan 3, 2011 at 10:54 PM, emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com <
emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com> wrote:

No she didn't she is in South  Africa now- just got a text actually.
She told me you had replied, she'd skimmed it, you love me but you're
a complicated man. I don't want to speculate without reading the
message but I've a feeling it means it's all over for me.

On 1/4/11, Barrett Brown <barriticus@gmail.com> wrote:

Sweetheart. I'm sorry about what's happened. You're not pestering me.
Did
Jess send you my message earlier?

On Mon, Jan 3, 2011 at 9:12 PM, emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com <
emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com> wrote:

I just had a dream about you in which, for your next Guardian piece,
you outed yourself as the *criminal* mastermind behind Anonymous,

 who

singlehandedly took down Tunisia, after you became pissed off at
them
when they tried to depose you in a daring but unsuccessful coup

d'etat

against you as the most successful President of Columbia in all
human
history. I woke thinking this could actually happen because you are
that sexy, being the Texan Julian Assange, only better looking etc,
and it would make for great copy so you would definitely do it, even
though you'd no longer be  anonymous. I think you could get a face
transplant and your fingerprints replaced with new ones so you could
be Anonymous again and next time take down all Islamic states and
annihalate them totally like the vermin they are. As long as you get
the same face. I like that face. You could wear a false nose on
outings. I think about you all the time Barrett and wonder how you
are. I won't say it but you know I love you. Damn just said it.
A-gain. I love you Barrett, love Emma. God damnit what on earth is
wrong with me. Forgive this rather obvious attempt at levity in
order
to make tentative contact with you because I feel your loss in my

life

like a physical pain and I am so in love with you I cannot stop
punishing myself. I think in time I will be able to stop pestering

you

but not yet. Your forbearance is greatly appreciated. My darling. My
love. My sweetheart. I adore you. From Emma. X now I'll debate with
myself whether to send this and spend the next ten minutes arguing
then I'll probably send it and feel immensely exposed and
vulnerable.
I really did just dream that about you though. I went for a walk

today

for 2 hours and passed by a house which had statues of eagles on its
gateposts. They looked, not to put too fine a point on it,
ridiculous
and ostentaious. Which is a cardinal sin in conservative suburbia.
Rather like driving a Lexus or having gold taps. Eagles on gate
posts
should only be conceived upon at the entrance to stately homes when
ones garden is the size of Surrey and ones relative made his riches
duelling and planning the overthrow of the Scots.

--
Regards,

Barrett Brown
512-560-2302

--
Regards,

Barrett Brown
512-560-2302

--
Regards,

Barrett Brown
512-560-2302