evilevilcouch@gmail.com: http://www.stackmagazines.com/admin/wp-content/uploads/2010/11/magazinedesignersguide.jpg evilevilcouch@gmail.com: http://ideas.blogs.nytimes.com/2010/08/19/the-new-urban-era/ evilevilcouch@gmail.com: http://ideas.blogs.nytimes.com/2010/07/14/the-science-of-resilience/ evilevilcouch@gmail.com: yarg me: yo evilevilcouch@gmail.com: maybe i'm cranky cause i havent smoked me: very likely evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i'm not usually cranky evilevilcouch@gmail.com: but i can become easily irritable at times evilevilcouch@gmail.com: which is why i started smoking me: yes evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i used to stress way too much me: I can imagine that evilevilcouch@gmail.com: oh well evilevilcouch@gmail.com: everyone can fuck off and die evilevilcouch@gmail.com: gdslhsdgl;jkasg me: oic evilevilcouch@gmail.com: whatever me: ? evilevilcouch@gmail.com: lol evilevilcouch@gmail.com: my horoscope is inaccurate for today me: sorry, sweetheart, I hoped to get you some more weed but just hasn't worked out yet evilevilcouch@gmail.com: This is an excellent day to be with friends. You have a strong desire to be included in something larger than yourself, to participate in group consciousness and activities. Today you are able to work harmoniously with others, because you see that your own benefit is derived from that of the group. This is also a good time to reflect on your life and to examine your goals and ideals. Your idealism will probably be strong, but instead of blindly assuming that everything will work out ideally, you should make a general review of your plans for the future, working very carefully toward attaining your ideals. Also you put all the disparate parts of your life together into a complete picture, so that you can understand the whole. evilevilcouch@gmail.com: BULLSHIT me: partly, maybe evilevilcouch@gmail.com: narf darf darfs :( evilevilcouch@gmail.com: grahhhhh i need to quit my bitching evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i still want to smash something evilevilcouch@gmail.com: but, also, usually when i get like this i usually just hang out by myself evilevilcouch@gmail.com: for future reference me: sorry, was outside me: that's reasonable evilevilcouch@gmail.com: what's it like when you do suboxone? evilevilcouch@gmail.com: what's the high like? me: it's similar to any other opiate for someone who is already addicted me: basically I feel somewhat better than I would if I were not an addict and on nothing evilevilcouch@gmail.com: hm evilevilcouch@gmail.com: interesting evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i wonder why my head's in a whirlwind spin of sorts me: I can imagine why evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i felt claustrophobic, yet not me: been a whirlwind romance me: and you're understandably wary evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and it takes me a long time to trust people usually me: plus everything else evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and i can read you for the most part evilevilcouch@gmail.com: but i don't feel the words that you'd say earlier when we have sex evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and it confuses me a lot me: feel what words? evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and then i feel a bit hurt/had/etc evilevilcouch@gmail.com: oh evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i dunno evilevilcouch@gmail.com: the ones between the lines me: I've had a lot on my mind too, sweetheart me: especially last day or so evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i know me: and that makes it hard for me to stop and concentrate on you evilevilcouch@gmail.com: you've been quieter me: same as it is for you evilevilcouch@gmail.com: but that isn't why i'm frustrated me: why are you frustrated? evilevilcouch@gmail.com: oh evilevilcouch@gmail.com: the whirlwind evilevilcouch@gmail.com: nothing specific evilevilcouch@gmail.com: bit it catches you off guard evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i'm just trying to wrap my head around it evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i've felt a bit transient and pulled in a few directions me: I'm trying to walk a line between liking you a lot and trying to keep you from feeling committed to something evilevilcouch@gmail.com: why? me: I was just concerned that perhaps you regretted the degree to which we've committed to each other already me: and when I hear "overwhelmed" me: that makes me worry that I'm causing it, and perhaps not entirely in a good way evilevilcouch@gmail.com: hm evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i like you evilevilcouch@gmail.com: but i just need to cuddle with my minoubear evilevilcouch@gmail.com: right now me: that's fine evilevilcouch@gmail.com: (she's under my left elbow as i type :)) evilevilcouch@gmail.com: lol evilevilcouch@gmail.com: we're both introverts evilevilcouch@gmail.com: but i haven't had my nikki-space and nikki-time me: yeah evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and i'm just one of those super planny people evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i plan things out evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and, like, if you'll move in evilevilcouch@gmail.com: zomgz! evilevilcouch@gmail.com: so many variables to consider/plan!! evilevilcouch@gmail.com: lololol me: yeah me: you can do all the planning, that's not my thing evilevilcouch@gmail.com: minou is soo soft and fuzzy and warm evilevilcouch@gmail.com: she's such a fuzzy kittybear evilevilcouch@gmail.com: lol evilevilcouch@gmail.com: well, the planning would require me asking you questions of things evilevilcouch@gmail.com: but i'm also shy to sorta bug you about that at times evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i'm not quite sure when would be the best time to ask you that crap evilevilcouch@gmail.com: because, again, you've had stuff on your mind evilevilcouch@gmail.com: so i've been all "hm, well, don't want to bother barrett cause he has important stuffs to do. hm, okay, what do i do... ... my computer is/isn't here. there's no minous here. hrm" evilevilcouch@gmail.com: etc me: well, I've gotten that stuff off my mind now, all processed and taken care of evilevilcouch@gmail.com: => nikki goes for minou cuddles evilevilcouch@gmail.com: oh hooray! evilevilcouch@gmail.com: that's good evilevilcouch@gmail.com: :) evilevilcouch@gmail.com: hm evilevilcouch@gmail.com: when abouts do you think you'd possibly move in? evilevilcouch@gmail.com: kevin posited his friend mike move in me: going to go with Rolling Stone and al-Jazeera, Guardian can have my stuff if they ask for it nicely evilevilcouch@gmail.com: :-p me: I thought he'd already decided to move in me: I guess MAtt's rent is paid this month? evilevilcouch@gmail.com: oh, well evilevilcouch@gmail.com: yep evilevilcouch@gmail.com: so the move in would be for feb 1 evilevilcouch@gmail.com: but evilevilcouch@gmail.com: also evilevilcouch@gmail.com: like evilevilcouch@gmail.com: mike has a gf that's living in a house he owns in louisiana evilevilcouch@gmail.com: but she's going to move back todallas eventually evilevilcouch@gmail.com: but no one knows when that'll be evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and apparentl mike's the easy-going type to where kevin said he could prob pull mike aside and tell him that if, down the road, you and i want to live together here, mike would prob be fine with moving out evilevilcouch@gmail.com: because he'd prob be moving in with his gf evilevilcouch@gmail.com: so there is that option me: that sounds pretty good evilevilcouch@gmail.com: k evilevilcouch@gmail.com: lol evilevilcouch@gmail.com: kevin was being my "bro" and being concerned about us happening so quickly evilevilcouch@gmail.com: because usually things that start up so quickly end just as quickly evilevilcouch@gmail.com: at least in my experience evilevilcouch@gmail.com: but, usually, i'm not that particularly into the person evilevilcouch@gmail.com: lol me: I guess I wouldn't have to work with my dad anymore if I left this apartment evilevilcouch@gmail.com: interesting me: since that's what he's paying for in exchange for my work on these fucking multimillion dollar oil deals evilevilcouch@gmail.com: well, kevin kept putting forth the fact that i require my space evilevilcouch@gmail.com: kevin and i are similar in that manner me: right evilevilcouch@gmail.com: sometimes we just want to hermit evilevilcouch@gmail.com: er evilevilcouch@gmail.com: as individuals evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i don't know how you are evilevilcouch@gmail.com: but kevin was just pointing out how that'd be hard if you lived with your s/o evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and since you and i don't know each other well enough yet evilevilcouch@gmail.com: we don't know all each other's little quirks and things yet me: well, what do you want to do on this? evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i want to make it work evilevilcouch@gmail.com: but i'm just all sorts of way too pragmatic sometimes evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and think of every single possibility evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and then that just ends up hurting my head evilevilcouch@gmail.com: lol me: OH NOES evilevilcouch@gmail.com: if you want to move in here after your lease is up, i think that'd be a good idea evilevilcouch@gmail.com: but i also don't know if mike would not want to move out then evilevilcouch@gmail.com: who knows evilevilcouch@gmail.com: also evilevilcouch@gmail.com: if you wanted to move in here feb 1 and had someone sublease your place evilevilcouch@gmail.com: well evilevilcouch@gmail.com: you're still getting off of suboxone evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and that'll be a pretty difficult transitionary period for you evilevilcouch@gmail.com: so adding more variables into the mix wouldn't be a good idea evilevilcouch@gmail.com: necessarily evilevilcouch@gmail.com: but i dunno me: I don't think it would be a bad thing me: for me getting off suboxone evilevilcouch@gmail.com: the getting off suboxone + moving bit evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and us still getting to know each other me: yeah evilevilcouch@gmail.com: all those variables put together evilevilcouch@gmail.com: those are pretty significant variables, though evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i'm not sure if it would be a stable enough environment for the specific time around when you'd be quitting it evilevilcouch@gmail.com: because, also, i'm a bit kitty like and have my routines in a manner and get sorta pissy if those are disrupted too much evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and you would probably disrupt my routines evilevilcouch@gmail.com: due to ignorance due to the fact that we are still getting to know each other evilevilcouch@gmail.com: so you'd just have no idea wtf my little stupid quirks/routines are evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and then i'd potentially get pissy about shit evilevilcouch@gmail.com: which would not be necessary evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i don't get pissy that often evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and id on't think all that would be much of a problem really evilevilcouch@gmail.com: but that was a bit of an issue with clay evilevilcouch@gmail.com: which is the last serious-ish relationship i had evilevilcouch@gmail.com: also, it would be ridiculous for me to get pissy about certain little things like that evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and unneccessary evilevilcouch@gmail.com: but i know i can get like that evilevilcouch@gmail.com: if things happen much too quickly evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i think it's sort of due to the whole "don't tell me what to do" sort of non-conformist bit of me evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and it's not like anyone would necessarily be tellling me what to do evilevilcouch@gmail.com: but it's more like "dammit, i do this thing. don't keep me from doing my thing that i do" evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i dunno it's stupid evilevilcouch@gmail.com: but, also, a lot of that is also sorta rooted in my OCD/anal thing evilevilcouch@gmail.com: which is why i smoke weed now evilevilcouch@gmail.com: lol evilevilcouch@gmail.com: so evilevilcouch@gmail.com: yeah evilevilcouch@gmail.com: also, um evilevilcouch@gmail.com: it prob should be noted evilevilcouch@gmail.com: that, uh, hm evilevilcouch@gmail.com: lol evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i know i probably ended a lot of past "relationships" probably too soon because i can feel claustrophobic pretty easily at times evilevilcouch@gmail.com: er, "dating" more than "relationship" evilevilcouch@gmail.com: but yeah then i'd end up bitching the person out and leaving evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i used to be a "deleter" evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i'd delete every remnance and evidence of my existence in that person's life evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and theirs from my own evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i haven't done that in a couple years evilevilcouch@gmail.com: but um, that's also sorta why i have a tendency to "break hearts" evilevilcouch@gmail.com: because i would end it so abruptly and on my own terms evilevilcouch@gmail.com: because i'm scared of loss evilevilcouch@gmail.com: because my father died when i was 8 years old evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and i've been to more funerals in my life than weddings evilevilcouch@gmail.com: because death isn't on your own terms evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and i don't need anymore pain in my life evilevilcouch@gmail.com: so evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i would just get angry and leave instead evilevilcouch@gmail.com: lol me: sweetheart me: I understand evilevilcouch@gmail.com: yeah i know evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i mean, that's like...my dating life 2+ years ago evilevilcouch@gmail.com: since i haven't really done that evilevilcouch@gmail.com: but i felt like giving you backstory, i guess evilevilcouch@gmail.com: of the evolution evilevilcouch@gmail.com: glenn broke my heart because i did anti- all of that evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and was patient evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and put up with shit that i would have left immediately on evilevilcouch@gmail.com: but evilevilcouch@gmail.com: he really was just a douchebag anyway evilevilcouch@gmail.com: lol evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i just had no idea what was acceptable to wait through and what was douchebaggery evilevilcouch@gmail.com: but glenn was douchebaggery me: who's that again? evilevilcouch@gmail.com: clay came after that and wanted to treat me right and show me hope, etc, but he's sorta codependent and a pussy and i knew it wouldn't really work, but eh w/e evilevilcouch@gmail.com: glenn scheduled a date with another girl on my birthday evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i dated glenn for like five months a year and a half ago or so evilevilcouch@gmail.com: 32 year old autistic software engineer evilevilcouch@gmail.com: before glenn was damon t, whom was a 35 year old crazy delusional (thought not autistic) software engineer evilevilcouch@gmail.com: though* me: delusional how? evilevilcouch@gmail.com: oh evilevilcouch@gmail.com: damon and i had the "future fights" evilevilcouch@gmail.com: he was funny and super nerdy evilevilcouch@gmail.com: but he never really came back to reality enough me: oh, I remember evilevilcouch@gmail.com: lol evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i like your face me: I like your face, too evilevilcouch@gmail.com: :) me: that's the one evilevilcouch@gmail.com: teeheee evilevilcouch@gmail.com: is the rolling stone thing going to be web or print? me: print evilevilcouch@gmail.com: ooh yay neat! me: Hastings was one of my first recruits evilevilcouch@gmail.com: tee hee me: I got him before he became particularly famous for the McChrystal story evilevilcouch@gmail.com: oh neato evilevilcouch@gmail.com: my metal friend chris usually transcribes the rolling stone features and stuff evilevilcouch@gmail.com: er evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i guess whatever interviews for certain big magazines in ny me: I used to have to do that me: at fucking nerve.com evilevilcouch@gmail.com: lol me: I started doing it in a passive aggressive way since I hated them evilevilcouch@gmail.com: hahaha evilevilcouch@gmail.com: oh shit evilevilcouch@gmail.com: Failed Rorschach to be honest with you, i was really hurt when you dropped the boyfriend news on me i couldn't sleep for hours. i just sort of lied there evilevilcouch@gmail.com: that's rafael me: I was confused for a second me: I don't remember telling you about my secret boyfriend me: Caleb evilevilcouch@gmail.com: teeheeheehee evilevilcouch@gmail.com: haahahhahahaha evilevilcouch@gmail.com: man evilevilcouch@gmail.com: :-p me: so what'd you tell Rafael? me: we've already broken a couple of hearts evilevilcouch@gmail.com: oh you were there when i told rafael evilevilcouch@gmail.com: lol evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i was consulting you during it evilevilcouch@gmail.com: on what to say me: yeah evilevilcouch@gmail.com: lol evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i feel silly still being curious about what all you want with me and such, but you've already told me several times evilevilcouch@gmail.com: so there's no use asking again evilevilcouch@gmail.com: but i wonder what underlying query hasn't been satiated me: hey, good! evilevilcouch@gmail.com: like evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i wonder if there's a better question or whatever evilevilcouch@gmail.com: oh well me: well, if you think it up, I'll answer evilevilcouch@gmail.com: you're a prettybear evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i should do laundry tomorrow me: teeeeheeeeeee evilevilcouch@gmail.com: hey did i tell you that before i'd usually wake up between 7-9am? evilevilcouch@gmail.com: that's one thing that could get me cranky at times evilevilcouch@gmail.com: btw evilevilcouch@gmail.com: the how routine/schedule thing i have evilevilcouch@gmail.com: is mainly to keep my head/emotions in check evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and when i get stressed/OCD about shit me: that's not unreasonable evilevilcouch@gmail.com: it's because i'm afraid of losing control of my emotions and such evilevilcouch@gmail.com: but when i get super stressed/OCD evilevilcouch@gmail.com: that's when i get all crazy anal about my diet and exercise and sleep patterns and etc etc evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and i end up micromanaging my life and stop "living" it evilevilcouch@gmail.com: but at that point i've basically already lost it evilevilcouch@gmail.com: hahahaha evilevilcouch@gmail.com: so, yeah evilevilcouch@gmail.com: but ummm evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i usually sleep in three hour increments evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i wake up best during my REM cycle evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i only know this because i used to always sleep through my alarms evilevilcouch@gmail.com: again, i failed out of college because of being consistently tardy evilevilcouch@gmail.com: so i had to figure out my sleep patterns evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i became anal about my diet evilevilcouch@gmail.com: because i didn't want to be on pills anymore evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and to lose weight evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i ate a lot of "brain food" i guess evilevilcouch@gmail.com: stuff with high omega-3 fatty acid content evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i learned a lot about holistic health/natural/alternative medicine crap when i was 17-18 evilevilcouch@gmail.com: because i wanted off of the pills evilevilcouch@gmail.com: (this is me explaining the method to my madness) evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i'd always cook food fresh, etc evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and only fresh produce that wasn't more than 3 days old evilevilcouch@gmail.com: but that's also why i started buying a lot of frozen vegetables evilevilcouch@gmail.com: because i'd waste a lot of food evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and that'd piss me off evilevilcouch@gmail.com: also, at one point, i used to have fucking AMAZING cholesterol evilevilcouch@gmail.com: but then i've been eating pretty fatty since i decided to gain weight cause i was cold evilevilcouch@gmail.com: lol me: AMAZING CHOLESTEROL! me: fag evilevilcouch@gmail.com: AMAZING evilevilcouch@gmail.com: bscly evilevilcouch@gmail.com: :-p me: girl fag evilevilcouch@gmail.com: girl fag that you fuck me: you are for sale come here evilevilcouch@gmail.com: no u evilevilcouch@gmail.com: oh evilevilcouch@gmail.com: also evilevilcouch@gmail.com: usually evilevilcouch@gmail.com: when i get super fucking pissy about something evilevilcouch@gmail.com: er evilevilcouch@gmail.com: certain things evilevilcouch@gmail.com: it's because i've worked really, really hard to get into whatever habit/routine and overcome whatever the fuck it was evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and so sometimes i flip out (read: "bitch") about shit evilevilcouch@gmail.com: this is why i may bitch about being thrown off of my routine evilevilcouch@gmail.com: because it took a LOT of work to become fucking "competent" in whatever manner that it is that i've been at evilevilcouch@gmail.com: it comes more naturally for some people evilevilcouch@gmail.com: but, damn evilevilcouch@gmail.com: lol evilevilcouch@gmail.com: for example evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i forget things a lot evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i have no clue wher ei put that pizza evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i may have left the pizza box on top of my car evilevilcouch@gmail.com: because i am a fucking genius me: lol evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i have my weird routines because i usually am really fucking absent minded evilevilcouch@gmail.com: like evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i have to put my keys a certain place or my phone evilevilcouch@gmail.com: or i have omfg no idea where the shit it went evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and i always have to put my credit cards back in the little case thing evilevilcouch@gmail.com: or else i lose the evilevilcouch@gmail.com: m evilevilcouch@gmail.com: like evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i have no clue where my debit card is evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i am telling you this now evilevilcouch@gmail.com: because evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i am starting to get thrown off of my routine evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and if it continues evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i'll probably flip the fuck out at you me: I see evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and when i get like that evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i'll prob be pissed off evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and be all "I'M TAKING ALL MY SHIT" evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and dumping whatever stuff of yours with you evilevilcouch@gmail.com: etc evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i am telling you this so that will not happen me: how do I stop this again? evilevilcouch@gmail.com: lol evilevilcouch@gmail.com: well evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i have to get back on my routine myself evilevilcouch@gmail.com: but evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i have to explain to you what my various little things are evilevilcouch@gmail.com: so that you are knowledgeable of them evilevilcouch@gmail.com: so you won't interfere with those little things evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i would get pissed at clay if i didn't have my adderall on me when i spent the night at his place evilevilcouch@gmail.com: because i get really groggy/cranky in the morning evilevilcouch@gmail.com: weed helps with me not getting pissy about my little things not being perfect and whatever evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i'm pretty laid back in general evilevilcouch@gmail.com: but certain things i'm fucking anal retentive about evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i should go check my car to see if i left the pizza on top of it me: not a bad idea evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i did evilevilcouch@gmail.com: now it is in my fridge evilevilcouch@gmail.com: so yeah evilevilcouch@gmail.com: like evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i'm not anal for no reason evilevilcouch@gmail.com: lol evilevilcouch@gmail.com: there is a method to my madness evilevilcouch@gmail.com: but yeah i just get super pissy because i'm naturally all over the place evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and i can become easily overwhelmed because i'm adhd as a motherfucker and there's only so much that can go on in my working memory at once evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i'm naturally really bad at managing varying unrelated tasks at the same time evilevilcouch@gmail.com: so i've had to set up all these stupid little specific routines so i can focus better on work and whatever shit evilevilcouch@gmail.com: because evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i failed out of school evilevilcouch@gmail.com: because i was way too adhd evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and wasn't getting any treatment for that until my second year of college evilevilcouch@gmail.com: after they'd already super overmedicated me evilevilcouch@gmail.com: but like evilevilcouch@gmail.com: hrm evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i can multitask pretty well evilevilcouch@gmail.com: sort of evilevilcouch@gmail.com: my mind works very quickly evilevilcouch@gmail.com: but evilevilcouch@gmail.com: that's when the tasks and such are all in a similar vein evilevilcouch@gmail.com: er evilevilcouch@gmail.com: say the thoughts are balls being juggled evilevilcouch@gmail.com: most people can juggle about 6-7 varying thoughts/etc at once evilevilcouch@gmail.com: with adhd and such, if you throw the 8th one in, they all fall down evilevilcouch@gmail.com: => nikki being overwhelmed and freaking out me: I understand evilevilcouch@gmail.com: so when i get "overwhelmed" evilevilcouch@gmail.com: like i may have said earlier evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i mean it in that sense evilevilcouch@gmail.com: like evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i can't wrap my mind around anything at the moment evilevilcouch@gmail.com: because all the shit going on was thrown into a bit pot of soup evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and i dunno wtf is in it evilevilcouch@gmail.com: it makes no sense to me evilevilcouch@gmail.com: or like throwing a 5 course meal into a blender evilevilcouch@gmail.com: but yeah i dunno evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i do the routines and stuff and the diet and exercise thing to try and not be on medicine evilevilcouch@gmail.com: but i still take adderall because when i don't i may run my car into non-moving objects evilevilcouch@gmail.com: because i'm just not paying attention evilevilcouch@gmail.com: so that's more of a benefit for society there evilevilcouch@gmail.com: lol me: you're a hero! me: nighty night evilevilcouch@gmail.com: lol evilevilcouch@gmail.com: shut up evilevilcouch@gmail.com: oh yeah evilevilcouch@gmail.com: but i only get anal about that when i'm working and stuff evilevilcouch@gmail.com: but i'm on a break now evilevilcouch@gmail.com: and won't be super busy in the near future me: good evilevilcouch@gmail.com: but i'm falling behind on schedule on the college app things evilevilcouch@gmail.com: but that's sort of okay evilevilcouch@gmail.com: because i set my personal deadline to be done with it all by feb 1 evilevilcouch@gmail.com: but it isn't really due until march evilevilcouch@gmail.com: but i have to tell myself to work on it during january anyway evilevilcouch@gmail.com: but yeah i try to get myself back into the schedule of going to sleep around 10pm-midnight so i can wake up maybe around 6am so i could potentially exercise/do yoga in the morning for an hour or whatever, shower, get dressed, do chores, etc evilevilcouch@gmail.com: self-management is hard evilevilcouch@gmail.com: lol evilevilcouch@gmail.com: i get distracted easily evilevilcouch@gmail.com: so that's also why i tell people to go fuck off at times evilevilcouch@gmail.com: so i can try and refocus evilevilcouch@gmail.com: anyway evilevilcouch@gmail.com: night night evilevilcouch@gmail.com: <3 me: sweet dreams, sweetheart me: call me tomorrow evilevilcouch@gmail.com: okie dokie :) evilevilcouch@gmail.com: sweet dreams to you, poobear me: !!! evilevilcouch@gmail.com: !!! evilevilcouch@gmail.com: rar