Subject: Re: Love
From: Barrett Brown <barriticus@gmail.com>
Date: 1/1/11, 14:36
To: "emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com" <emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com>

Sweetheart. This just happened. I met this girl a few nights ago and we immediately hit it off. I didn't know what to do regarding you because I do love you, but I did indeed not have any ties here, and yet I'm stuck here for a while, and I need someone I can actually be with right now, because I've almost never had that. You were married and have a daughter you love; I've never had anything like that. My family life has been abusive in some fashion or another forever, and I have trouble relating to other people. I can't not feel attracted to other girls, and I can't have you right now in anything more than a conceptual way that is more pleasing to a female than it is to a male, and which leaves me just as alone in the human, flesh sense as I was previously. This doesn't mean that we can't be together at some point when finances and all that allow us to be; it means that, for now, I've met a girl who I want to spend time with. I didn't know how to tell you but I had to put up that video as a bargaining chip with this guy who's been acting in an abusive manner towards her; I should have told you immediately, but I didn't want to go through with it. I still want whatever relationship with you that you will accept knowing that as long as we are apart I have to have something for myself.

On Sat, Jan 1, 2011 at 1:04 PM, emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com <emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com> wrote:
Sweetheart, I can't just switch off the love. But i'm devastated. I
had no idea you had a girlfriend. I thought you wanted to leave dallas
because you had no ties there and come here. I'm hurting so much.
Please tell me if you loved me. Or tell me to go and I will although
it absolutely breaks my heart to even contemplate that. I love you
Barrett. I am deeply in love with you and I can't keep from saying it
to you because it is part of me. You are part of me.



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Regards,

Barrett Brown
512-560-2302