Re: I lightened this up considerably
Subject: Re: I lightened this up considerably
From: "emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com" <emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com>
Date: 12/15/10, 13:24
To: Barrett Brown <barriticus@gmail.com>

I find myself sexually attractive, in that I got turned on watching myself but I don't want to fuck myself, or other women, although I do sometimes fantasise about women. But I know that if confronted with a woman I would run away and seek a man because its men who really turn me on and women don't. So thats strange. There seems a disconnect there that I can't unravel. I suppose I love cock. 

And I believe the main reason I got turned on was imagining you watching me do that and you getting hard because I'm doing it. Your arousal arouses me.  Also its real, not put on, we're real people who interact in all sorts of other ways and who know each other and so that turns me on. I'm going to make you one with no music, just my voice. I think my voice is pretty sexy when in the throes of passion. (God I love myself don't I) I don't really. I just love thinking of ways to turn you on. 

Is Xanax a tranquilliser? I used to get Diazepam (don't know the US name for it) after Jessica was born because I got some bad post natal depression which manifested itself in me thinking something terrible would happen to her all the time and having panic attacks in my sleep. I was ridiculously over protective. The diazepam calmed me down to such an extent I think I could have faced a Grizzly Bear and not even screamed. I loved them. I wish I still had some!

I see a new message thingy has just flashed up form you so Im sending this one. Are you okay? I mean do you feel okay?


On Wed, Dec 15, 2010 at 6:11 PM, Barrett Brown <barriticus@gmail.com> wrote:
See, women can do that, men can't. I envy the sexual opportunities of the female. And at any rate your frontal video is incredible. I had another damned guest over last night - neighbor who also has opiate addiction due to old sorts injuries, is on methadone and a drunk and otherwise in bad shape. He gave me some Xanaxes, which was nice, but at any right I've having slight trouble with short-term memory at the moment due to after-effects. Now I have to go through last night's e-mails and and blogging stuff and see what I've been up to, which is always interesting when I don't remember.


On Wed, Dec 15, 2010 at 1:04 PM, emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com <emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com> wrote:
(I just watched myself masturbating and turned myself on)


On Wed, Dec 15, 2010 at 6:03 PM, emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com <emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com> wrote:
wow!!!!!!!! that marvelous, good on you Barrett Brown! STuff that up the LOG and LGF :)


On Wed, Dec 15, 2010 at 5:55 PM, Barrett Brown <barriticus@gmail.com> wrote:
Barry Eisler is listing me as a source in his next book regarding the Russian apartment bombings.


On Wed, Dec 15, 2010 at 12:49 PM, emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com <emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com> wrote:
I'm so glad you like it. You know I'm thinking about you when I'm doing that. I really want you. Really fucking want you. I want to make more for you.


On Wed, Dec 15, 2010 at 5:35 PM, Barrett Brown <barriticus@gmail.com> wrote:
This one is even better than the one I asked for, because I can see your face and your passion and because it's the way you wanted to do it. I love it when you do things for me but I love it even more when you do exactly what your cunt and your heart and womb want to do. I love you, Emma.

On Wed, Dec 15, 2010 at 10:59 AM, emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com <emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com> wrote:
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Barrett Brown
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Barrett Brown
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Regards,

Barrett Brown
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