On 11/30/10,
emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com <
emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com> wrote:
> You just woke me up with your mind, Spock. I'm not even kidding. Going
> to kidnap dogs. Brb.
>
> On 11/30/10, Barrett Brown <
barriticus@gmail.com> wrote:
>> I don't think we need help from the Vulcans.
>>
>> On Mon, Nov 29, 2010 at 4:04 PM,
emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com <
>>
emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com> wrote:
>>
>>> Forgot to mention Pon Far. It's how the vulcans mate. I'll have to
>>> look into the specifics but I believe it's more of a cerebral union
>>> although I could be mistaken. And we can always add our own
>>> interpretation involving sibling sex and dogs.
>>>
>>> On 11/29/10,
emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com <
emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com>
>>> wrote:
>>> > My darling Barrett! Of course I want you to explain all of it to me. I
>>> > want that more than anything. I want to be close to you. Very close. I
>>> > am inordinately interested in everything thats ever happened to you,
>>> > ever. You're like the most fascinating book I could ever get to read.
>>> > Knowing more about you actually nourishes me. It feeds our
>>> > relationship, such as it is, given the obvious limitations. But in
>>> > this way we overcome some of the barriers enforced by geography. I can
>>> > mind meld with you, like vulcans do. Which is quite appropriate given
>>> > the vulcan reliance on logic and rejection of emotion. I love Star
>>> > Trek. You can be Mr Spock and I'll be the voluptuous blonde Ukranian
>>> > nurse. I think I got that last bit from Wikileaks. We can still play
>>> > Star Trek though, right? Anyway yes please, do tell me all. Be
>>> > completely honest with me. I love all of you. I want to know all of
>>> > you.
>>> >
>>> >
>>> > On 11/29/10, Barrett Brown <
barriticus@gmail.com> wrote:
>>> >> Thanks for this. I'm so appreciative that you're letting me explain
>>> >> this
>>> >> and
>>> >> can understand it. I've never been able to have this conversation
>>> before.
>>> >>
>>> >> On Mon, Nov 29, 2010 at 2:33 PM,
emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com <
>>> >>
emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com> wrote:
>>> >>
>>> >>> Its quite difficult for me to understand the emotional detachment
>>> >>> you
>>> >>> feel
>>> >>> most of the time because I am so emotional most of the time, which
>>> >>> is
>>> >>> mainly
>>> >>> a pain in the arse, but anyway. I wish I was not so emotional.
>>> >>>
>>> >>> My own childhood was quite strained and not ideal - my dad is not
>>> >>> my
>>> >>> dad
>>> >>> -
>>> >>> I don't know who my dad is, i have never wanted to know. I figure he
>>> >>> didn't
>>> >>> want anything to do with me or my mum so, anyway, there's that. The
>>> >>> man
>>> >>> I
>>> >>> call my dad is a sweet man but has never really been a father to me,
>>> >>> in
>>> >>> that
>>> >>> I never felt the close bond one is supposed to have with a father.
>>> >>> In
>>> >>> that
>>> >>> way I can relate to your own experience, except my real father has
>>> >>> always
>>> >>> been absent and never wanted to see me. This sort of stuff needs to
>>> >>> be
>>> >>> talked about rather than written about. There are other issues with
>>> >>> my
>>> >>> mum,
>>> >>> not least that she is a christian and it colours her whole world, in
>>> >>> a
>>> >>> narrow minded parochial way which infuriates me.
>>> >>>
>>> >>> I have always been an outsider, at school and everywhere Ive ever
>>> >>> worked,
>>> >>> even at University. So I can really relate to that feeling of
>>> detachment
>>> >>> and
>>> >>> I can count on one hand my close friends or those I would trust with
>>> >>> anything personal. People think I am cold and distant but thats only
>>> >>> because
>>> >>> I really can't stand most people, including most of my family,
>>> >>> parents,
>>> >>> sister, although I like her slightly better now, probably because
>>> >>> she's
>>> >>> in
>>> >>> Australia. I do most things alone, make decisions, plan my days, I
>>> >>> really
>>> >>> don't need people around me. I like very few people that much to
>>> >>> want
>>> >>> their
>>> >>> company. Thats why I value you so much. I actually really like you
>>> >>> and
>>> I
>>> >>> find you funny, smart interesting and hot. I could easily spend
>>> >>> entire
>>> >>> weeks
>>> >>> with you and not even get mad with you once. You see, with people I
>>> love
>>> >>> I
>>> >>> am completely different. I would do anything for Jessica, anything
>>> >>> for
>>> >>> you
>>> >>> and I have infinite patience.
>>> >>>
>>> >>> The bottom line is I want this to work. So I will give you all the
>>> >>> time
>>> >>> you
>>> >>> need to develop your feelings for me. I don't want to force
>>> >>> anything,
>>> as
>>> >>> if
>>> >>> I could. You strike me as very determined in what you want anyway
>>> >>> and
>>> >>> I
>>> >>> doubt I could persuade you into something your heart wasn't in. I
>>> >>> also
>>> >>> understand myself enough to know that I only want this if you want
>>> >>> it.
>>> >>> If
>>> >>> that makes sense. The thing is I forget about the drugs and I forget
>>> >>> about
>>> >>> the emotional detachment so I get upset, feel rejected and
>>> >>> forgotten.
>>> >>> But
>>> >>> I
>>> >>> will make myself remember and allow you time to make me more a part
>>> >>> of
>>> >>> your
>>> >>> world. I'm on your side, I want to make things good for us, for as
>>> >>> long
>>> >>> as
>>> >>> you do.
>>> >>>
>>> >>> On Mon, Nov 29, 2010 at 6:15 AM,
emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com <
>>> >>>
emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com> wrote:
>>> >>>
>>> >>>> Oh God this just breaks my heart. Really and truly, I am so fucking
>>> >>>> angry with your dad. I need to think and calm down or my reply will
>>> >>>> just be a line of expletives. I'll reply at length today. My sweet,
>>> >>>> dear, perfect Barrett.
>>> >>>>
>>> >>>> On 11/28/10, Barrett Brown <
barriticus@gmail.com> wrote:
>>> >>>> > I can tell you that I've meant everything I've said to you thus
>>> >>>> > far
>>> >>>> about
>>> >>>> > loving you. I want what we've talked about in terms of absolute
>>> >>>> > honesty
>>> >>>> and
>>> >>>> > understanding. But I also meant what I said when I told you how
>>> >>>> difficult
>>> >>>> > it's going to be for me to get to that point. Even aside from the
>>> >>>> > drugs,
>>> >>>> I
>>> >>>> > have some considerable emotional detachment problems that mostly
>>> stem
>>> >>>> from
>>> >>>> > when I was a child. My dad is an extraordinarily selfish and
>>> >>>> > frankly
>>> >>>> > terrible person. When my parents were divorced it was
>>> >>>> > acrimonious.
>>> My
>>> >>>> first
>>> >>>> > memory is of my dad calling my mom and the two of them arguing
>>> >>>> > and
>>> >>>> > then
>>> >>>> her
>>> >>>> > handing me the phone, at which point my dad told me he wasn't
>>> >>>> > going
>>> >>>> > to
>>> >>>> see
>>> >>>> > me any more because my mom was being "mean" to him, and of course
>>> >>>> > I
>>> >>>> > was
>>> >>>> > inconsolable for I don't know how long afterwards. Later he did
>>> >>>> > resume
>>> >>>> > seeing me and was supposed to do so every week - my mom basically
>>> >>>> guilted
>>> >>>> > him into it - but often times he wouldn't come and I'd be sitting
>>> out
>>> >>>> there
>>> >>>> > waiting for him for an hour or two until giving up. That's not
>>> >>>> everything,
>>> >>>> > but it's probably a good portion of why I have problems getting
>>> close
>>> >>>> > to
>>> >>>> > people - even aside from the fact that I have half of this man's
>>> >>>> > genes.
>>> >>>> It
>>> >>>> > didn't help that I spent an unusually large amount of my
>>> >>>> > childhood
>>> >>>> > and
>>> >>>> > adolescence alone, being an only child with a working mother and
>>> >>>> > having
>>> >>>> > trouble relating to my peers, or that I've spent a good portion
>>> >>>> > of
>>> >>>> > my
>>> >>>> time
>>> >>>> > since alone as a freelancer with little in common with most
>>> >>>> > anyone.
>>> >>>> > It's
>>> >>>> > almost as if I'm autistic to some extent. I know it doesn't seem
>>> that
>>> >>>> way
>>> >>>> > from what you see in the videos. At any rate, I do love you, and
>>> >>>> > I'm
>>> >>>> really
>>> >>>> > trying to break out of all of this so that I can love you in the
>>> >>>> > way
>>> >>>> that I
>>> >>>> > want to so that we can be emotionally connected. It's just going
>>> >>>> > to
>>> >>>> > take
>>> >>>> > some time for me because it's so alien to what I'm used to. Be
>>> >>>> > patient
>>> >>>> with
>>> >>>> > me, and don't take it personally when I can't express that love
>>> >>>> > to
>>> >>>> > you
>>> >>>> as
>>> >>>> > consistently as someone else could. Remember that I have been
>>> >>>> > able
>>> to
>>> >>>> really
>>> >>>> > feel and engage in that love on occasions so far, and I'll do so
>>> more
>>> >>>> > as
>>> >>>> > time goes on. It's just so hard for me to be a flesh and blood
>>> >>>> > human
>>> >>>> being
>>> >>>> > because I've never felt like one.
>>> >>>> >
>>> >>>> > On Sun, Nov 28, 2010 at 6:11 PM,
emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com <
>>> >>>> >
emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com> wrote:
>>> >>>> >
>>> >>>> >> I don't feel that you feel the same deep overwhelming lost kind
>>> >>>> >> of
>>> >>>> >> love that envelops me when I think about you. I lust after you
>>> >>>> >> as
>>> >>>> >> you
>>> >>>> >> know, but entwined all around and within that lust is need and
>>> >>>> >> craving
>>> >>>> >> and feelings I associate with falling in love. I feel this is
>>> >>>> >> love
>>> >>>> >> and
>>> >>>> >> romance and heady intoxicating and bewildering desire all at
>>> >>>> >> once.
>>> I
>>> >>>> >> do not know if you feel that or if you are like the boy you told
>>> >>>> >> me
>>> >>>> >> you were when we first began this . You do not seem like a boy
>>> >>>> >> to
>>> >>>> >> me.
>>> >>>> >> You have all the qualities I associate with maturity and wisdom
>>> >>>> >> and
>>> >>>> >> manhood combined with the boyish charm. I would still like to
>>> >>>> >> know
>>> >>>> >> exactly how you feel toward me. If you are unused to seeing a
>>> >>>> >> woman
>>> >>>> >> as
>>> >>>> >> more than something you fuck then I need to know. I think you
>>> >>>> >> like
>>> >>>> >> more about me than just my tits and ass. I can pick somebody up
>>> >>>> >> if
>>> >>>> >> all
>>> >>>> >> I want is to fuck but this with you is far more than just
>>> >>>> >> fucking.
>>> >>>> >> It's fucking plus a million. It's perfect. I'm scared by how
>>> intense
>>> >>>> >> I
>>> >>>> >> feel. I would do any filthy thing you asked of me and my
>>> >>>> >> thoughts
>>> >>>> >> are
>>> >>>> >> getting more lascivious, more extreme as days go by. I think I
>>> >>>> >> stopped
>>> >>>> >> making sense back there somewhere and now i'm just rambling. I
>>> >>>> >> know
>>> >>>> >> I
>>> >>>> >> love you. It's not even funny how much I want your cock. I would
>>> >>>> >> kill
>>> >>>> >> anyone that got near it or you at this point. Sometimes your
>>> replies
>>> >>>> >> are quite curt. Even dismissive. I'm probably way too sensitive
>>> >>>> >> and
>>> >>>> >> need to develop a thick skin but i'm soft and exposed with you.
>>> >>>> >>
>>> >>>> >> On 11/28/10, Barrett Brown <
barriticus@gmail.com> wrote:
>>> >>>> >> > You don't feel love from me?
>>> >>>> >> >
>>> >>>> >> > On Sun, Nov 28, 2010 at 5:36 PM,
emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com <
>>> >>>> >> >
emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com> wrote:
>>> >>>> >> >
>>> >>>> >> >> Okay the sex part- fucking hell. Fantastic. But. Need the
>>> >>>> >> >> love.
>>> I
>>> >>>> need
>>> >>>> >> >> it or I can't go near my cunt for you. I need to feel you in
>>> >>>> >> >> my
>>> >>>> heart.
>>> >>>> >> >>
>>> >>>> >> >> On 11/28/10,
emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com <
>>> >>>>
emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com>
>>> >>>> >> >> wrote:
>>> >>>> >> >> > Want to hold you in my arms while you suckle me and I
>>> >>>> >> >> > masturbate.
>>> >>>> >> >> > I'll
>>> >>>> >> >> > come in seconds. And again.
>>> >>>> >> >> >
>>> >>>> >> >> > On 11/28/10, Barrett Brown <
barriticus@gmail.com> wrote:
>>> >>>> >> >> >> God, I want to such them for hours.
>>> >>>> >> >> >>
>>> >>>> >> >> >> On Sun, Nov 28, 2010 at 2:57 PM,
>>> >>>> >> >> >>
emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com<
>>> >>>> >> >> >>
emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com> wrote:
>>> >>>> >> >> >>
>>> >>>> >> >> >>> I could hardly think to speak coherently in the video.
>>> >>>> >> >> >>> All
>>> >>>> >> >> >>> I
>>> >>>> want
>>> >>>> >> >> >>> to
>>> >>>> >> >> >>> do
>>> >>>> >> >> >>> is
>>> >>>> >> >> >>> get fucked by you. Thats all I can think about. Can't
>>> >>>> >> >> >>> even
>>> >>>> >> >> >>> think
>>> >>>> >> about
>>> >>>> >> >> >>> Islam. Don't give a fuck if we get overrun by the
>>> >>>> >> >> >>> fuckers.
>>> >>>> >> >> >>> Just
>>> >>>> >> >> >>> want
>>> >>>> >> >> >>> your
>>> >>>> >> >> >>> cock every way I can
>>> >>>> >> >> >>>
>>> >>>> >> >> >>>
>>> >>>> >> >> >>> On Sun, Nov 28, 2010 at 7:52 PM, Barrett Brown
>>> >>>> >> >> >>> <
barriticus@gmail.com>wrote:
>>> >>>> >> >> >>>
>>> >>>> >> >> >>>> Masturbating. Your tits are gigantic. I want to cum all
>>> over
>>> >>>> them.
>>> >>>> >> >> >>>>
>>> >>>> >> >> >>>>
>>> >>>> >> >> >>>> On Sun, Nov 28, 2010 at 9:54 AM,
>>>
emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com
>>> >>>> >> >> >>>> <
>>> >>>> >> >> >>>>
emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com> wrote:
>>> >>>> >> >> >>>>
>>> >>>> >> >> >>>>> I sent muchos tit pics and a tit video and I want your
>>> >>>> reaction
>>> >>>> >> NOW
>>> >>>> >> >> >>>>
>>> >>>> >> >> >>>>
>>> >>>> >> >> >>>>
>>> >>>> >> >> >>>>
>>> >>>> >> >> >>>> --
>>> >>>> >> >> >>>> Regards,
>>> >>>> >> >> >>>>
>>> >>>> >> >> >>>> Barrett Brown
>>> >>>> >> >> >>>> 512-560-2302
>>> >>>> >> >> >>>>
>>> >>>> >> >> >>>
>>> >>>> >> >> >>>
>>> >>>> >> >> >>
>>> >>>> >> >> >>
>>> >>>> >> >> >> --
>>> >>>> >> >> >> Regards,
>>> >>>> >> >> >>
>>> >>>> >> >> >> Barrett Brown
>>> >>>> >> >> >> 512-560-2302
>>> >>>> >> >> >>
>>> >>>> >> >> >
>>> >>>> >> >>
>>> >>>> >> >
>>> >>>> >> >
>>> >>>> >> >
>>> >>>> >> > --
>>> >>>> >> > Regards,
>>> >>>> >> >
>>> >>>> >> > Barrett Brown
>>> >>>> >> > 512-560-2302
>>> >>>> >> >
>>> >>>> >>
>>> >>>> >
>>> >>>> >
>>> >>>> >
>>> >>>> > --
>>> >>>> > Regards,
>>> >>>> >
>>> >>>> > Barrett Brown
>>> >>>> > 512-560-2302
>>> >>>> >
>>> >>>>
>>> >>>
>>> >>>
>>> >>
>>> >>
>>> >> --
>>> >> Regards,
>>> >>
>>> >> Barrett Brown
>>> >> 512-560-2302
>>> >>
>>> >
>>>
>>
>>
>>
>> --
>> Regards,
>>
>> Barrett Brown
>> 512-560-2302
>>
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