Oh God this just breaks my heart. Really and truly, I am so fucking
angry with your dad. I need to think and calm down or my reply will
just be a line of expletives. I'll reply at length today. My sweet,
dear, perfect Barrett.
On 11/28/10, Barrett Brown <barriticus@gmail.com> wrote:
I can tell you that I've meant everything I've said to you thus far
about
loving you. I want what we've talked about in terms of absolute honesty
and
understanding. But I also meant what I said when I told you how
difficult
it's going to be for me to get to that point. Even aside from the
drugs,
I
have some considerable emotional detachment problems that mostly stem
from
when I was a child. My dad is an extraordinarily selfish and frankly
terrible person. When my parents were divorced it was acrimonious. My
first
memory is of my dad calling my mom and the two of them arguing and then
her
handing me the phone, at which point my dad told me he wasn't going to
see
me any more because my mom was being "mean" to him, and of course I was
inconsolable for I don't know how long afterwards. Later he did resume
seeing me and was supposed to do so every week - my mom basically
guilted
him into it - but often times he wouldn't come and I'd be sitting out
there
waiting for him for an hour or two until giving up. That's not
everything,
but it's probably a good portion of why I have problems getting close
to
people - even aside from the fact that I have half of this man's genes.
It
didn't help that I spent an unusually large amount of my childhood and
adolescence alone, being an only child with a working mother and having
trouble relating to my peers, or that I've spent a good portion of my
time
since alone as a freelancer with little in common with most anyone.
It's
almost as if I'm autistic to some extent. I know it doesn't seem that
way
from what you see in the videos. At any rate, I do love you, and I'm
really
trying to break out of all of this so that I can love you in the way
that I
want to so that we can be emotionally connected. It's just going to
take
some time for me because it's so alien to what I'm used to. Be patient
with
me, and don't take it personally when I can't express that love to you
as
consistently as someone else could. Remember that I have been able to
really
feel and engage in that love on occasions so far, and I'll do so more
as
time goes on. It's just so hard for me to be a flesh and blood human
being
because I've never felt like one.
On Sun, Nov 28, 2010 at 6:11 PM, emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com <
emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com> wrote:
I don't feel that you feel the same deep overwhelming lost kind of
love that envelops me when I think about you. I lust after you as you
know, but entwined all around and within that lust is need and craving
and feelings I associate with falling in love. I feel this is love and
romance and heady intoxicating and bewildering desire all at once. I
do not know if you feel that or if you are like the boy you told me
you were when we first began this . You do not seem like a boy to me.
You have all the qualities I associate with maturity and wisdom and
manhood combined with the boyish charm. I would still like to know
exactly how you feel toward me. If you are unused to seeing a woman as
more than something you fuck then I need to know. I think you like
more about me than just my tits and ass. I can pick somebody up if all
I want is to fuck but this with you is far more than just fucking.
It's fucking plus a million. It's perfect. I'm scared by how intense I
feel. I would do any filthy thing you asked of me and my thoughts are
getting more lascivious, more extreme as days go by. I think I stopped
making sense back there somewhere and now i'm just rambling. I know I
love you. It's not even funny how much I want your cock. I would kill
anyone that got near it or you at this point. Sometimes your replies
are quite curt. Even dismissive. I'm probably way too sensitive and
need to develop a thick skin but i'm soft and exposed with you.
On 11/28/10, Barrett Brown <barriticus@gmail.com> wrote:
You don't feel love from me?
On Sun, Nov 28, 2010 at 5:36 PM, emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com <
emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com> wrote:
Okay the sex part- fucking hell. Fantastic. But. Need the love. I
need
it or I can't go near my cunt for you. I need to feel you in my
heart.
On 11/28/10, emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com <
emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com>
wrote:
Want to hold you in my arms while you suckle me and I masturbate.
I'll
come in seconds. And again.
On 11/28/10, Barrett Brown <barriticus@gmail.com> wrote:
God, I want to such them for hours.
On Sun, Nov 28, 2010 at 2:57 PM, emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com <
emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com> wrote:
I could hardly think to speak coherently in the video. All I
want
to
do
is
get fucked by you. Thats all I can think about. Can't even
think
about
Islam. Don't give a fuck if we get overrun by the fuckers. Just
want
your
cock every way I can
On Sun, Nov 28, 2010 at 7:52 PM, Barrett Brown
<barriticus@gmail.com>wrote:
Masturbating. Your tits are gigantic. I want to cum all over
them.
On Sun, Nov 28, 2010 at 9:54 AM, emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com <
emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com> wrote:
I sent muchos tit pics and a tit video and I want your
reaction
NOW
--
Regards,
Barrett Brown
512-560-2302
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Regards,
Barrett Brown
512-560-2302
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Regards,
Barrett Brown
512-560-2302
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Regards,
Barrett Brown
512-560-2302