Re: Please wake up! Your video is on orange :(

I have always been an outsider, at school and everywhere Ive ever worked, even at University. So I can really relate to that feeling of detachment and I can count on one hand my close friends or those I would trust with anything personal. People think I am cold and distant but thats only because I really can't stand most people, including most of my family, parents, sister, although I like her slightly better now, probably because she's in Australia. I do most things alone, make decisions, plan my days, I really don't need people around me. I like very few people that much to want their company. Thats why I value you so much. I actually really like you and I find you funny, smart interesting and hot. I could easily spend entire weeks with you and not even get mad with you once. You see, with people I love I am completely different. I would do anything for Jessica, anything for you and I have infinite patience.

The bottom line is I want this to work. So I will give you all the time you need to develop your feelings for me. I don't want to force anything, as if I could. You strike me as very determined in what you want anyway and I doubt I could persuade you into something your heart wasn't in. I also understand myself enough to know that I only want this if you want it. If that makes sense. The thing is I forget about the drugs and I forget about the emotional detachment so I get upset, feel rejected and forgotten. But I will make myself remember and allow you time to make me more a part of your world. I'm on your side, I want to make things good for us, for as long as you do.

On Mon, Nov 29, 2010 at 6:15 AM, emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com <emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com> wrote:

Oh God this just breaks my heart. Really and truly, I am so fucking
angry with your dad. I need to think and calm down or my reply will
just be a line of expletives. I'll reply at length today. My sweet,
dear, perfect Barrett.

On 11/28/10, Barrett Brown <barriticus@gmail.com> wrote:
> I can tell you that I've meant everything I've said to you thus far about
> loving you. I want what we've talked about in terms of absolute honesty and
> understanding. But I also meant what I said when I told you how difficult
> it's going to be for me to get to that point. Even aside from the drugs, I
> have some considerable emotional detachment problems that mostly stem from
> when I was a child. My dad is an extraordinarily selfish and frankly
> terrible person. When my parents were divorced it was acrimonious. My first
> memory is of my dad calling my mom and the two of them arguing and then her
> handing me the phone, at which point my dad told me he wasn't going to see
> me any more because my mom was being "mean" to him, and of course I was
> inconsolable for I don't know how long afterwards. Later he did resume
> seeing me and was supposed to do so every week - my mom basically guilted
> him into it - but often times he wouldn't come and I'd be sitting out there
> waiting for him for an hour or two until giving up. That's not everything,
> but it's probably a good portion of why I have problems getting close to
> people - even aside from the fact that I have half of this man's genes. It
> didn't help that I spent an unusually large amount of my childhood and
> adolescence alone, being an only child with a working mother and having
> trouble relating to my peers, or that I've spent a good portion of my time
> since alone as a freelancer with little in common with most anyone. It's
> almost as if I'm autistic to some extent. I know it doesn't seem that way
> from what you see in the videos. At any rate, I do love you, and I'm really
> trying to break out of all of this so that I can love you in the way that I
> want to so that we can be emotionally connected. It's just going to take
> some time for me because it's so alien to what I'm used to. Be patient with
> me, and don't take it personally when I can't express that love to you as
> consistently as someone else could. Remember that I have been able to really
> feel and engage in that love on occasions so far, and I'll do so more as
> time goes on. It's just so hard for me to be a flesh and blood human being
> because I've never felt like one.
>
> On Sun, Nov 28, 2010 at 6:11 PM, emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com <
> emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com> wrote:
>
>> I don't feel that you feel the same deep overwhelming lost kind of
>> love that envelops me when I think about you. I lust after you as you
>> know, but entwined all around and within that lust is need and craving
>> and feelings I associate with falling in love. I feel this is love and
>> romance and heady intoxicating and bewildering desire all at once. I
>> do not know if you feel that or if you are like the boy you told me
>> you were when we first began this . You do not seem like a boy to me.
>> You have all the qualities I associate with maturity and wisdom and
>> manhood combined with the boyish charm. I would still like to know
>> exactly how you feel toward me. If you are unused to seeing a woman as
>> more than something you fuck then I need to know. I think you like
>> more about me than just my tits and ass. I can pick somebody up if all
>> I want is to fuck but this with you is far more than just fucking.
>> It's fucking plus a million. It's perfect. I'm scared by how intense I
>> feel. I would do any filthy thing you asked of me and my thoughts are
>> getting more lascivious, more extreme as days go by. I think I stopped
>> making sense back there somewhere and now i'm just rambling. I know I
>> love you. It's not even funny how much I want your cock. I would kill
>> anyone that got near it or you at this point. Sometimes your replies
>> are quite curt. Even dismissive. I'm probably way too sensitive and
>> need to develop a thick skin but i'm soft and exposed with you.
>>
>> On 11/28/10, Barrett Brown <barriticus@gmail.com> wrote:
>> > You don't feel love from me?
>> >
>> > On Sun, Nov 28, 2010 at 5:36 PM, emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com <
>> > emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com> wrote:
>> >
>> >> Okay the sex part- fucking hell. Fantastic. But. Need the love. I need
>> >> it or I can't go near my cunt for you. I need to feel you in my heart.
>> >>
>> >> On 11/28/10, emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com <emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com>
>> >> wrote:
>> >> > Want to hold you in my arms while you suckle me and I masturbate.
>> >> > I'll
>> >> > come in seconds. And again.
>> >> >
>> >> > On 11/28/10, Barrett Brown <barriticus@gmail.com> wrote:
>> >> >> God, I want to such them for hours.
>> >> >>
>> >> >> On Sun, Nov 28, 2010 at 2:57 PM, emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com <
>> >> >> emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com> wrote:
>> >> >>
>> >> >>> I could hardly think to speak coherently in the video. All I want
>> >> >>> to
>> >> >>> do
>> >> >>> is
>> >> >>> get fucked by you. Thats all I can think about. Can't even think
>> about
>> >> >>> Islam. Don't give a fuck if we get overrun by the fuckers. Just
>> >> >>> want
>> >> >>> your
>> >> >>> cock every way I can
>> >> >>>
>> >> >>>
>> >> >>> On Sun, Nov 28, 2010 at 7:52 PM, Barrett Brown
>> >> >>> <barriticus@gmail.com>wrote:
>> >> >>>
>> >> >>>> Masturbating. Your tits are gigantic. I want to cum all over them.
>> >> >>>>
>> >> >>>>
>> >> >>>> On Sun, Nov 28, 2010 at 9:54 AM, emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com <
>> >> >>>> emilieduchatelet8@gmail.com> wrote:
>> >> >>>>
>> >> >>>>> I sent muchos tit pics and a tit video and I want your reaction
>> NOW
>> >> >>>>
>> >> >>>>
>> >> >>>>
>> >> >>>>
>> >> >>>> --
>> >> >>>> Regards,
>> >> >>>>
>> >> >>>> Barrett Brown
>> >> >>>> 512-560-2302
>> >> >>>>
>> >> >>>
>> >> >>>
>> >> >>
>> >> >>
>> >> >> --
>> >> >> Regards,
>> >> >>
>> >> >> Barrett Brown
>> >> >> 512-560-2302
>> >> >>
>> >> >
>> >>
>> >
>> >
>> >
>> > --
>> > Regards,
>> >
>> > Barrett Brown
>> > 512-560-2302
>> >
>>
>
>
>
> --
> Regards,
>
> Barrett Brown
> 512-560-2302
>