Subject: first date rape
From: Barrett Brown <barriticus@gmail.com>
Date: 4/30/10, 15:43
To: Selena Leong <selenaleong@gmail.com>

First Date Rape

By a Guy Who's Sure as Fuck Not Going to Identify Himself

I find the idea of any sort of conventional concurrent-to-coitus conversation to be kind of unseemly, like stealing a magazine from an airport gift shop or dancing when you're straight and male. Gays can dance and steal all the magazines they want for all I care; I believe that their persecution entitles them to certain liberties above those afforded the rest of us. I guess what I'm trying to say is that a girl prompted me to pretend-rape her on our first date, and I did so. Insomuch as that I was once asked to talk dirty to some other girl but could think of nothing non-sarcastic to say, this was a big step.

The date was going well even before it started going memorably, which is bizarre, as I gave off every warning signal as to my failures as a person, like having to share a coffee mug of vodka with the girl because I'd accidentally broken all the glasses in the apartment, one by one. At some point I actually made her look at this game I was playing, called Dwarf Fortress, in which I pretend that I am some large number of dwarves, all living together in a fortress. Eventually she relented and we had sex, which was probably for the best.

At some point I was hitting that ass from behind, as is my custom, and the girl asked, "Are you going to rape me?" Well, who am to refuse to pretend to rape a girl? I used to pretend to kill my friends all the time as a kid. I still pretend to kill things, or rather my dwarves do. With that in mind, or perhaps something else, I held down her arms and proceeded to "rape" her. This consisted of me engaging the girl in continued sexual intercourse, with her occasionally struggling to escape but not so diligently as to complicate our coupling - and a good thing, as I'm a heavy smoker and don't really exercise during winter. It would have been pretty impolite for her to overcome my wanted advances.

And politeness is important to me, which is why I've never been inclined to even fantasize about coercive behaviour, which I consider to be even more unseemly than magazine theft. Having said that, simulating rape - poor as our dual performance would have seemed to the critical eye of any drama coach who might have been watching through the window - was fun and interesting without causing anyone any distress, which is a fine thing for a sex act to be. Well, perhaps the reader is upset, in which case I will remind him or her - probably her - that I did a terrible job of pretend-raping the girl in question. So, there you go.


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Regards,

Barrett Brown
Brooklyn, NY
512-560-2302