Re: money

I'm sorry for having made such poor decisions that have caused you and dad so much trouble. You were right about these various people I've chosen for roommates. Straub turned out to be a drug addict and at any rate just basically immoral, this Scott kid meant well but lost his job and his efforts to make money since then have all fallen through. I was hoping to get several thousand from Pat Stack by now but he seems to be taking his time. One of the girls I'm seeing, who serves as head chef of the Illustrator's Guild in Manhattan, has gotten me some work as a server with that starting in a week or so, which should help. Additionally I'm going to take whatever other jobs are necessary to keep me afloat in addition to the little I make in writing so that I can fulfill my obligations as an adult. I just want you to know, for what it's worth, that I didn't intend to fail in the way that I have; I misjudged a lot of what I thought to be viable opportunities and what turned out to be nothing, and of course I made the mistake of assuming that people would come through with their obligations to me - and to you and dad, of course. I think that perhaps you get the impression that I don't feel terrible about having made such bad decisions and thus having to draw on your money as a result, but I do. I've been stressed out about that for a long time, and particular over the last several months. I'm going to work this restaurant thing and whatever else I have to do so that I won't have to cause you those problems ever again, as I know you don't have much and I've been asking you for what little you have in order to pay for other people's obligations. I've never felt so terrible about anything in my life, and I've spent a good portion of my life feeling terrible. I'm trying, and I love you.

On Fri, Jan 15, 2010 at 7:02 PM, Karen Lancaster <lancaster.karen@gmail.com> wrote:

OK. Just deposited $200, but your account probably only has about $150.00 in it. (OD transfer was made an hour ago or so, and not sure if my deposit will cancel it out, or not.)

On Fri, Jan 15, 2010 at 5:10 PM, Barrett Brown <barriticus@gmail.com> wrote:

I just took out $80 in order to pay for our last internet/cable bill. I've got 250 coming in on Monday, so take $80 out of that. Dad has agreed to pay for my place with Mirna for next 2 months and I have money coming in other than that.